Trust

Trust my dear, its something everyone can do even though you don't even trust yourself.. i tell you alot that you can't accomplish stuff if you don't believe in yourself, yet you still don't... idk lah, but i trust you, i really do.. even if it gets me hurt, i trust you.. and right now, you are the one of the people i can trust, cuz some of my bro's o so backstabbed me.. what the fuck, i'd never backstab a bro even though he is a player, or a jackass... when i first met you, i knew that one of my close friends liked you, so i backed off.. but when i saw he was okay with it, then what else is there to hold back? After we got comfortable i knew one of my other close friends liked you, i wasn't gonna give you up, fuck that.. he didn't tell me sooner.. and he was fine by it also.. but i still felt kinda bad but not the point.. i never had guts to comment about what people do.. as in teguh, but kalau my bros.. teguh and punch them.. if they do something wrong, but if girls... no guts.. i could kill a man but i couldn't teguh someone.. see! im not as strong as you thought i was.. and not as patient..

I love it when you tell me stuff that might hurt me.. relief but im still jealous lah :P and i won't stalk so don't worry.. just, if you want, follow my advice not just to take care of my heart, but to jaga your maruah also and prevent bad stuff from happening.. when you told me you were gonna walk home from work, at freaking 10pm from amcorp to your house... bloody hell.. felt like flipping my computer table xD not out of anger.. but out of worries.. i would ya know, go teman you back home in the middle of the night, i got a bicycle ya know :P and im soooo sorry i stood u up during lunch .__. really am.. and replying with just "okay" i was actually at the train station, waiting for the god damn train that was late... but yeah, i still got some stuff i didn't tell you... ill tell you soon enough (: and you still wanna see my twitter = =" its just dead now, never really updated, i still am bothered bout some things and still am jealous sometimes but, its just me...

I'm not afraid to tell you stuff... i rarely lie to you.. like really rarely! cuz idk, you can take the truth out of me (: which i am grateful for that.. i have ALOT of things to get off my chest, but like i said i got NO GUTTS!!! i got guts only when i say it infront of you.. face to face.. which i've done alot .__. if you ask me to make a list... a whole forest will be cut down to make paper.. environment pollution.. and i'm always here for you if you need me.. so.. if you need me... tell me!! (:

Helloo

If i made any promises, and i forgot to to full fill it, i'm sorry.. yeah i got no guts to ask if i made any promises, but... if i remember and i don't full fill it... i have my reasons, just leave it that way and if you feel like you have a grudge on me... then leave, just leave, don't talk to me, delete in me in facebook..... plenty of 'ME's in the world

Like We Used To

I can feel her breath as she's sleeping next to meSharing pillows and cold feetShe can feel my heart, fell asleep to its beatUnder blankets and warm sheets
If only I could be in that bed againIf only it were me instead of him
Does he watch your favorite movies?Does he hold you when you cry?Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts?When you've seen it a million times
Does he sing to all your musicWhile you dance to "Purple Rain"?Does he do all these thingsLike I used to?
14 months and 7 days agoOh, I know you know how we felt about that nightJust your skin against the windowBut we took it slow and we both know
It shoulda been me inside that carIt should have been me instead of him in the dark
Does he watch your favorite movies?Does he hold you when you cry?Does he let you tell him all your favorite partsWhen you've seen it a million times?
Does he sing to all your musicWhile you dance to 'Purple Rain'?Does he do all these thingsLike I used to?
I know, love(Well, I'm a sucker for that feeling)Happens all the time, love(I always end up feeling cheated)You're on my mind, love(Oh sorta let her when I need it)That happens all the time, love, yeah
Will he love you like I loved you?Will he tell you everyday?Will he make you feel like you're invincibleWith every word he'll say?
Can you promise me if this was right?Don't throw it all away
Can you do all these things?Will you do all these thingsLike we used to?Oh, like we used to

Friends

Guess we're all falling apart huh?? guess we were never meant to stay a group, but i don't mind, cuz life has ways of changing and bending the world. i meet new friends and make new bonds between new people, but the old bonds between the past friends are rusty and easily broken, but rust can be overcame, but i think its too late, this year i just lost all the fucks i give about everything, but i feel i should still have it, but its so hard to get it back... i feel like i don't care bout anything anymore, but someone is making me feel.. for once... damn shit, im not even friends with the guy i befriended when i was standard 1, just now in school, when he got in trouble for doing bad stuff, i just stood there and shook my head, everyone changes, even if we don't know it, even if we don't want to admit it, but everyone does, i've changed alot, hell yeah i did, i don't text anyone anymore these days, but i still have fun, my foosball skills are getting better and better, can finally make a clean pass, woohoo!! and i think i can beat thinesh.. i think.. that man is a beast, lightning quick moves, anyway, i know friends don't last, well not all of them, so right now, i just really need to find the fucks i give about SPM, cuz right now im just lazy as hell, dont game anymore, D3 got bug so cant play, other account got password so cant play my games anymore, and i get bored easily, right now its 12am, and im gonna stay up and design my shoe, still havent thought of the colour of the arms.. weird.. i remember last year during this month my heart was broken, but the past is just the past, cant change it, dont want to change it... and im sick.. got flu, been sneezing all over the place, haha i met this girl, shes damn different lah, i call her zasshu ( mongrel in japanese ) and she calls me... - -""" kirei ( beautiful in japanese) well actually its kirei na.. but lets just keep it to ourselves, its enough my friends call me kirei in school... due to the fact that i am emotionless and have no feelings like a character in Fate Zero, Kotomine Kirei... they call me kirei.. LOL so i dunno if their calling me beautiful or they just think i have no emotion :P but having no emotions is fun man, u punch people like no feeling o so, but i do have a bit of feelings still, im not that dead.. its been 4 days since i've played in the rain, epic-ness.. this morning it was so dark, was walking back from canteen to my class, suddenly it poured, and i was chewing on my nugget!! it was ridiculous man, my nugget got soaked, but i still ate it cuz i don't want to waste it.. today was good, it was good, sat next to my bro, and ramesh was extremely funny today, EXTREMELY funny during bio.. its good to see her smile (: hyper boy needs to practice his foosball lah, he ah, cannot relax man, he needs to relax, even Marc said he act like pro, but play not like pro.. haha damn funny lah, marc o so need some training, even though he has played longer than me, and some more he has more time and he is older than me! well, got to go..

Mesmerizing speech (:

Why I love Playing games...

Commentators... 1 word... commentators.. they are fucking awesome, never boring when their commentating either a game ur playing, or just some random game, WHOEVER IS READING THIS!! YOU MUST WATCHH!!!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66ZFGAH4CJA&feature=related

MIDWEST CHOPPERS 2... Tech N9ne is fucking killer

[Intro]
We scoured the globe on a quest to find the most elite
Most intricate tongues of all time
California, New York, Denmark, Australia
Then a cold wind from the Midwest brought the hardest
Fastest, most accurate tongues ever heard in our lifetime
These are the Midwest Choppers

[K-Dean]
I got a message for any one of you muthafuckin niggaz
That wanna talk 'bout the Mid-Midwest
We dangerous, Aim to bust any little nigga with a big-big chest
Anybody that wanna be comin thinkin they hotter
I'm a type of nigga that'll really kill ya for dollas
Fuck everybody that want a piece of a killa
For real, Me and my niggaz will leave you floatin in a river
So fuck all you haters, You heard what I said
My flow a little bit over your head
Act like a pencil, I'll fill you with led
If you afraid, Then tell me you scared
Cause imma little bit out of my muthafuckin mind
The hardest rapper that Tecca N9na could fuckin find
Who that? Who that? That's me
Who that? Who that? K-Dean
When I was comin up in the game everybody was tellin me
'I really be killin a lot of you niggaz, I'm mean'
Fuckin with my niggaz D-Loc and Dalima
They told me, 'I be really gotta be a muderer killin machine'
I didn't care about nothing but rappin my way to the top
Fuckin with my nigga Tech, He told me I'm hot
Anybody got a problem with any one of my niggaz
I'll pulled out the 9 milli up to a pop
Bring the heat, Bring the noise, Bring the flames
Anything that you bring, Imma tame
Puttin dirt on the top of my name
Pull back and I click-click, bang
Ask Tech, He'll tell you I'm strange
If you ever wanna talk about me
Imma run up, Gun up and leave you with no brain
Then you'll know my flow is insane

[Chorus]
I be on the West Coast, I be on the East Coast
I be North, South, but I reside on my side, Midwest Chopper
Even though I'm all up in the Northwest
All across the U.S.
Overseas, Midwest Choppers

Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (You can't touch us)
Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (Yeah, Midwest Choppers)
Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (You can't touch us)
Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (Nigga, Midwest Choppers)

[Krayzie Bone]
Come, come get some of this
Midwest murda music, murda music, murda music
Come, come get some of this
Midwest murda music, murda music, murda music
Let me hit 'em
When I get 'em, Imma split 'em, Imma kill 'em
I'm the nigga with the lyrical venom finna get up in them
When they give me the instrumental
I finish 'em, diminish 'em
I guarantee the murda music is a minimum
But lately I been givin 'em hell
They don't really wanna see me, I'm so damn swell
Call me a monster, Verse Designer, First To bomb ya
Leathaface pullin up in that hearse beside ya
Murda, mo murda, mo murda, mo murdered 'em all, kill 'em all
Krayzie kill 'em all, they fall
It's a lyrical execution
We snap faster, We the rap masters
Squeeze the gat, Blast it, If that's how it gots to be
So they better get it ready
Cause I'm heated like an AK-47 spittin bullet deliverence out of me
Well that's somethin, That's crazy, Jackson
He's amazin action, Stay in action
Rap singin at ya, I'm blazin at ya
I'm kinda like an automatic aimin at ya
And I don't want a little bit of flame to ashes
You know you really truely insane to madness
You're never gonna find other niggaz more scandalous
Than this Midwest blastin famly

[Chorus]
I be on the West Coast, I be on the East Coast
I be North, South, but I reside on my side, Midwest Chopper
Even though I'm all up in the Northwest
All across the U.S.
Overseas, Midwest Choppers

Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (You can't touch us)
Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (Yeah, Midwest Choppers)
Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (You can't touch us)
Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (Nigga, Midwest Choppers)

[Tech N9ne]
I am the definition of murda
The N9ne is now coming to serve ya
You're running but you can't go no furtha
Cause I'm running through you with no sign of inertia

Gimme the mic and I bet that you duck
It's what you betta do when I'm bussin
I be flippin, I'm incredible, Never get on my level
I'm a killa with the pedal to the medal
You're edible and ya death is so inevitable
I can take it to ya momma, Ya daddy, The back of a caddy
You cut up in the sack with a baggy and I wanna...
Take it out and make it patty
You gotta be patty
Cause that'll be bad if you decide to mad, Is you gonna?
You can listen to me and see I'm the nigga with the ammunition
I'm givin the livin a vision of death
Makin 'em sick and depressed
Cause I be givin everything
I'm a rebel and I'm still with the quick and the best
Makin 'em walk in the business
I get up in it to rip and diminish ya
Trip and I finish ya
Dig it, You really get me livid, I'm bout give it a pivot
Imma stick it so we can differ to sinister
I be the chopper that got ya little boppers goin off us
Better not let me up on the premises
Cause I'm a doctor that's out for the shotaz when I brought ya
Be cautious never talk of this nemesis
We on top of the hill when it come to the skill
Other rappers are damn jokers
They be givin the people comedy
But the Tecca N9na misery shit is Bram Stoker

[Chorus]
I be on the West Coast, I be on the East Coast
I be North, South, but I reside on my side, Midwest Chopper
Even though I'm all up in the Northwest
All across the U.S.
Overseas, Midwest Choppers

Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (You can't touch us)
Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (Yeah, Midwest Choppers)
Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (You can't touch us)
Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh-Ay-Oh (Nigga, Midwest Choppers)

I HAVE NO IDEA!

Idk why i still do, but i do, keep dreaming of u.. wanna beat the fuck out of people talking bout perverted things about you, worry about u most of the fucking time, ur the last image i see before i sleep... idk why i still love you, u barely talk to me, u barely look at me, i dont even see you so much @____@ wtf man... HEART WHY YOU BEING SUCH A BITCH.. well.. life is a bitch aint it.. but i like my life, i wuv mah family :D but still... i just wish i could shake it off.. cuz i know u think we cant be together, and i tried.. so why keep trying when u fail.. never try... then fuck it, sometimes i'd just wish in tuition some freaking ninja or some student comes up to me and stabs me or shoots me or something.. or i get hit by a car whilst cycling.. that would be awesome.. but til then, i guess ill bear it.. >_>

Cavaleri ai lui Theoden

Treziti-va! Treziti-va Cavaleri ai lui Theoden!

Sulitele se vor cutremura,

Scuturile se vor sfarama!

In sabii se ridica ziua rosie!

In rasaritul Soarelui!

Calariti,acum!

Calariti,acum!

Calariti!

Calariti spre parjol si al lumii sfarsit!

Moarte! Moarte! Moarteeeeeeee!

Woof

Hellow, im fine thank you... long time since i did this >_> well, these days have been tiring, very tiring, especially with my exams.. chemistry.. literally.. literally.. LITERALLY.. killed me!!! teacher said it would be easy, but the questions fucked my brain... freaking hard!! now im just worried.. what my parents would say if i fail it.. *sigh* given up everything just to get 10As for le mom and dad >_> and also my dreams lah, half of me saying its worth it, half of me saying not worth it.. but nothing else for this year, cept study.. im chatting with asyraf right now, dunno wether to go to all those events, gotta know my results first, then only can decide, im freaking worried.. i just cant think properly about social things, for studies im fine.. doing fine for studies, cept one or two things, get bummed easily.. i just hide it behind my smile (: its not that hard to do it

Uhm, either than that, mom and dad not home this week, so gonna be a blast, been asking alot of questions in tuition, tomorrow got tuition some more and i think im not gonna sleep tonight cuz im about to play starcraft with acap, which we both know we not gonna stop xD haha, i've been think.. thinking alot bout stuff, just makes me not wanna get married somehow, ladidi ladada im freaking sleepy, today suppose to have futsal.. went to arena, then saw assunta chicks there... and.. what else? GTFO!! xD well imma go join Acap now.. bye bye...

YOU DON'T LIKE MY POSTS BITCH?!

DDEEAALL WWIITTHH IITT!!!!!! :DD

......

I am waiting, waiting for the right time, when all of us can be together, like last time, last night i was thinking bout my birthday, 15th birthday, first birthday hangout in my life, first time i had friends around me celebrating, instead of doing it alone at home, mom at work, dad at work... im just waiting for the moment, where we can all come together, and do it all again, push everything aside, and just forget all the problems each of us had, i don't like being alone without everyone around me, but good things come to those who wait.. so im waiting, for the right time, still havent told her, and i feel guilty for that, some things are better off unsaid, til ur ready, i wont tell u..

The sad part is that nobody has stood up and herded us together, some are taking sides, well what can i say? we are all different, we're all human, and humans are like that, so don't be ashamed u took sides during a war.. just make sure that side is the right side, but im saying anyone is to be blamed.. we're all to be blamed, by being so blinded by all this negativity that we forgot all the good times we had, most people count the bad stuff, cuz bad stuff... i have no idea why people pay so much attention to bad stuff, but i'm, i'm just trying to stay positive these days... helping each of my friends if they need it, even if they don't appreciate it, i just do.. next week is early exams, gotta score, if i wanna go to plays or ICC.. but i'm fine if i don't go for ICC, but i prefer to go, i can support my friends performing, and just catch up with old friends that i haven't met..

right now just listening to some sad songs, i can't... be.. too sad, or not ill get angry, its 12.11am... i wish i could turn back time, but i can't.. so i just hope, everything will work out, even if i have to stand up and talk to everyone, people hating me and all, its okay, used to people hating me, if u ignore the pain, u won't get hurt.. most people think other people cause their pain, but its the person's choice.. to accept the pain, to give in to the pain.. or to just ignore it, no matter how bad it is, i chose to ignore it.. thats why i'm always happy.. cuz when imma bout to do something stupid, i think of the good stuff and bad stuff... well.. good night then, gotta get some sleep

so far away, i'm gone, please don't follow me tonight, and when i'm gone, everything will alright..

I want no one to care..

Uhm, i made a promise to someone, promised something.. and i don't intend to not do it.. so.. yeah.. these days i want no one to care for me, im glad to see most people not talking to me and not bothered bout what i do, so im glad, i just really am glad, cuz i don't want anyone to care, like form 1, the only friends i had were BB-ians, and some others, and i'd like to end my school days with just some friends, but i don't mind others joining in, just not so much, kept my distance from everyone from whats been happening last year, well.. thats all.. just gonna show u guys why i like Space so much.. and why i never said FML before...

This is the Cat's eye nebula (: its my favorite cuz its quite beautiful

This is the orion nebula, Orion's belt cant be seen.. uhm.. wait it can? dunnow if thats it or not, but yeah it holds the three stars for Orion's belt (:

This is the Helix Nebula, it kinda looks like a portal actually xD like in Portal 2, one blue and one orange xD either way, its nice

This is le Horsehead nebula, i put this in cuz, whenever i play chess, i always move the Knight first XD for those who dunnow what the Knight is, its the horse (:

This is the Eagle.. nebula? some people call it.. something.. something Pillars i think o_o.. PILLARS OF CREATION! :D yeahh xD

This is the Ring Nebula, it kinda looks like Helix, but in a different angle o_o

This is the.. RED SPIDER NEBULA!! if im not mistaken .___. looks like a pheonix.. or a baby chicken XD haha

Well i'm sorry if i wasted ur time.. was just.. ya know.. bored wanted to share some stuff... goodnight (: sweet dreams

dot... dot... dot...

i have a reason for everything i do.. not all reasons need to be known.. so theres a reason why im not talking to u.. just leave it be and forget about me >__>

SOMEONE HELP ME NOW!!

oh my fucking gosh.. im so hyper now!! Im listening to this awesome epic legendary orchestra piece and its so freaking awesome, some more acap making sooooo many typos making me laugh!! AAAHHH so much hyperness, and god damn today was so freaking awesome, went to mid valley spend some time with my bros went to the IT Convention centre was freaking awesome, RAZOR ALL THE WAY MAN!!! Watch Ghost Rider 2 with harith, i enjoyed it.. but it just wasnt as good as the first one, but i like the fact that anything the Rider rides turns into a demon, sort of.. vehicle xD OWH OWH!! my most favourite line is :
"I want you to count every money in there. People are robbing me these days!! It makes my balls hurt!"
Awwww that was freaking hilarious man!! Ya know, its time like this i love, cuz i forget bout all my problems, and all the things im mad at, just went around the mall hanging out, then went to victoria station for dinner, 3 hours there, thats mad bro.. thats mad xDD But yeah, got a message from her saying nite nite, i just ignored it.. Owh crap.. now Radiant Eclipse is playing, and im gonna get more hyper and tomorrow got that orchestra thing to go to acap gonna follow me, both of us wearing blazer, OR SUITS!! YEAAAHHH!! IMMMA BE BARNEY AND ACAP TED!!! le wingman xD ah well, i am feeling awesome, must start studying from this week, gonna start ignoring some people, owh wait, i already did. HAHAHA :P well... bye bye!!

This song is dedicated to you (:

Cause some things just don't change
It's better when they stay the same
Although the whole world knows your name
So on the biggest days they came to see you spit your game
Ooooohhhhhhh
It shouldn't be difficult to explain
Just why you came back again, you hate the fame
Love the game, cold as ice you remain
Fuck em' all, tell 'em all eat shit, here we go again

So, god damn... is it that time again already
Haha, you don't look too happy to see me
Fuck man, don't everybody welcome me back at once
All right, fuck ya'll then

[Verse 1]
You can get the dick, just call me the ballsac, I'm nuts
Michael Vick in this bitch, fall back you mutts
Fuck your worms, you never seen such a sick puppy
Fuck it a sick duck, I want my duck sick mummy
And my nuts, lick, gobble 'em up trick, yummy
Bitch you don't fucking think I know that you suck dick dummy?
You'll get your butt kicked, fuck all that love shit honey
Yeah I laugh when I call you a slut, it's funny!
Shawty dance while I diss you to the beat, fuck the words
You don't listen to 'em anyway, yeah struck a nerve sucker
Motherfucker might aswell let my lips pucker
Like Elton John, cause I'm just a mean cock sucker
This shit is on, cause you went and pissed me off
Now I'm sitting and pissing on everybody
Give a fuck if it's right or wrong
So buck the buddah, light a bong
But take a look at mariah the next time I inspire you to write a song, cmon

[Chorus]
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh, I'm as cold as the cold wind blows
When it snows and it's twenty be-low
Ask me why man I just don't know know know know know know know
I'm as cold as the cold wind blows blo-blo-blo-blo-blo-blows
Oh oh oh oh oh

[Verse 2]
Fuck it I'm a loose cannon, Bruce Banner's back in the booth
Ya'll are sitting ducks, I'm the only goose standing
I set the world on fire, piss on it, put it out
Stick my dick in a circle, but I'm not fucking around motherfucker
I'll show you pussy footin, I'll kick a bitch in the cunt
Til it makes her queef and sounds like a fucking whoopy cushion
Who the fuck is you pushin', you musta mistook me for some sissy
Soft punk looking for some nookie or boosom
Go ahead, fucking hater push me
I told you ain't no fucking way to shush me
Call me a faggot cause I hate a pussy
Man the fuck up sissy, G's up
All you gardeners freeze up, put your hoes down (shady ease up!)
Man chill, nah I can't god damnit
Rap is a landfill, drop the anvil
These are shoes that you can't fill
Shit the day that happens the world'll stop spinning
And Michael J. Fox'll come to a stand still
During an earthquake, urine in your face
Cause you're fake, ahh what the fuck, that hurt wait!
Ahh what the fuck, I just got struck by lightening
Alright then I quit, god I give up
Call it evil that men do, lord forgive me for what my pen do
This is for your sins, I cleanse you
You can repent but I warn you, if you continue
To hell I'll send you, and just then the wind blew and I said

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh, I'm as cold as the cold wind blows
When it snows and it's twenty be-low
Ask me why man I just don't know know know know know know know
I'm as cold as the cold wind blows blo-blo-blo-blo-blo-blows
Oh oh oh oh oh

[Verse 3]
How long will I be this way? Shady until my dying day
Til I hang up the mic and it's time for me to say
So long, til then I drop the fucking bombs
Like I miss the pass when I went long
If you don't like it you can kiss my ass in a lint thong
Now sing along, slut this, slut that, learn the words to the song
Oh bitches don't like that, homie I'll be nicer to women
When the aqua man drowns and the human torch starts swimming
Man I'm a cold soul, I roll solo so
So don't compare me to them other bums over there
It's like apples to oranges, peaches to plums yeah
I'm bananas pussy, cut off the grapes and grow a pair
But I swear, you try to diss me, I'll slaughter you
I put that on everything, like everyone does with auto-tune
That last thing you wanna do is have me spit out a rhyme
And say I was writing this and I thought of you so

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh, I'm as cold as the cold wind blows
When it snows and it's twenty be-low
Ask me why man I just don't know know know know know know know
I'm as cold as the cold wind blows blo-blo-blo-blo-blo-blo-blows
Oh oh oh oh oh

[Outro]
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
I don't know, I don't know what caused, I don't know what caused me to be this way
I don't know, I don't know but I probably be this way 'til my dying day
I don't know why I'm so, I'm so cold mean things I don't mean to say
I guess this is how you made me

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Guess they're really mad at me huh, very pissed off xD do what u want lah, be pissed, go spread rumours, go tell other people im gay or im a bad boyfriend or any shit, whoever lah that spreads it, im not the one being a looser xD fuck urself man!! or woman, now i don't really care what u call me, u can even call me rude, what the fuck to i give?? Open 2000 books and still can't find the fuck i give haha, u think u can hurt me... Impossibru (:

Awesome day

today was kinda okay, nothing to talk bout, just today we had a lil gather at my house, ALL GAMERS yeahhh, and all malays, not to be racist, but easier.. these past few days havent been easy with games and all trying to study, havent even study for 1st Test T___T damn i need to stop all this crap and study.. so idk, just no time for drama right now, set all emotions aside, and start focusing study, friends also aside, just some friends only register, these two idiots up there at the photo went to my house xDD

Well, nothing to talk bout, not really a good mood ....

WHAT??

BABI COMEL GILA SIAL!! agghhh.. zee world is full of cutenessss!!! but not everything is cute, cats mostly are .___.

Funny..

Tonight, this very night, for those of you who don't like geeks then don't read this, was playing SC II as usual, doing the normal build, in the mood then this guy decides to 6 pool me, i was like

I was so bullshiting angry, ruined my mood., decided to counter it, counter counter counter, then i build my army, then i build this massive fucked up army, macro macro macro, micro my shit up when battling him, the he decided to pull back and i was like 

then i won, cuz i am gold, and he bronze.. so yeah, point of this post just wanted to try gifs :P forgot my tumblr password .____. today maulidur rasul AWESOME!! slept in the prefect room the whole time it was on (: well.. ceramah lah, we won 4th place for perarakan 8D YEAHH!!! imma go reply her now, maybe in a while after i bathe.. just noticed it, AND GOD DAMN IM HUNGRY.. aight.. adios

Freaking Hungry

Seriously i think theres a hole in my stomach, cuz i've been hungry all the time!!! GAAHH!! at 2 plates of rice, now hungry edi, the fuck!!! damn i hope my mom cooked me that burger ><"" ESOK MAULIDUR RASUL!! YEAAAHH!! EXCITED MAN!!! 8'D well bye bye ^^

My Song

This song by Avenged Sevenfold, called I Wont See You Tonight, listened to it everyday whilst i was at UK, thought about stuff, and those 3 weeks that i have realized the relationship aint going to well.. so yeah.. these are the lyrics, cant really sing it so i just sang in the bathroom while it was playing xD


Cry alone, I've gone away 
No more nights, no more pain 
I've gone alone, took all my strength 
I've made the change, 
I wont see you tonight 

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood 
All the ones around me 
I cared for and loved 

It's building up inside of me 
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free 
Don't mourn for me, 
You're not the one to place the blame 
As bottles call my name 
I won't see you tonight 


Sorrow sank deep inside my blood 
All the ones around me 
I cared for and most of all I loved 
But I can't see myself that way 
Please don't forget me, or cry while I'm away 


Cry alone, I've gone away 
No more nights, no more pain 
I've gone alone, took all my strength 
But I've made the change, 
I wont see you tonight 

(So far away, I'm gone
Please don't follow me tonight 
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright)

No more breath inside 
Essence left my heart tonight [x2]



This song just makes me really sad, ATM even.. but life moves on >_>

Dunno..

It aint normal for me to update my blog almost everyday, but it just feels like the only way i can express myself and all, cuz im just afraid that when i express it in real life, people will start judging, but i know people have been judging me for a long time, even now, so im not that worried, just keep it to yourself don't have to tell me no matter how bad it is, i lost 2 people in a year, that really is a big bummer.. and i know they've moved on and im not surprised so it just tells me that life sometimes suck, and this year im actually being such a bitch, yeah i know it myself, owh btw, ignore the post down there its just me trolling xD i would never tell who i trust, and i was just curious on how many people will get mad at me, my curiousity is bigger than the universe so it dont be surprise if i hurt some people with my curiousity, its just me, not surprised if alot of people are mad at me, it aint surprising, mom gets mad everyday so its just like a breath of fresh air aint nothing so special about it

realize i've done some things wrong, alot of things i guess, so i am sorry, it just goes to show that some people have really been messing with my zen this past few days, family specially, mom dad, aunty all stressing about SPM, and breaking up with her seemed like it was just yesterday, it still hurts, it comes and goes, but its not that bad, its good to remember the times we had, makes me smile once in a while, which is rare these days, rarely smile even if you did see me having a big smile on my face, aint meaning im smiling on the inside,

i know i wasnt such a good bf to you.. always missed the times you were crying, and you were alone, still regret being so angry at UK, and always scolding you, and even i didnt know when u cried, right now im real dizzy and im real tired and im gonna play some games now to make me relax, feel like im gonna puke any second, i found my dinosaur bottle, and thing im gonna bring it to school, today when i came back i looked at lucky feet and he seemed so sad, guess when his emotions are like mine.. just finished add maths, gonna hang my clothes in a while

so to the people that are angry at me, go on being angry you can even bitch about me if you want, i don't mind, just don't tell me in the face cuz ill give you one punch, no matter girl or boy.. well goodnight, and whoever is reading this, HAI :J

Fact :

People i dont trust :
-Everyone cept the following
(i) Acap
(ii) Harith
(iii) Edz (he can be a bitch sometimes but its okay)
(iv) Hazman
(v) Ariff
(vi) Aaron
(vii) Joyen (Dont you fucking judge me, if you are, then dont read this)
--------- NO ONE ELSE -----------

One of the reasons if your not in the list cuz thats just the way it is, cant trust anyone anymore, even these people o so, i dont tell em anything, cept top 3, well not everything... just that, these guys were there they didnt bother if i was sad, if i broke up, if my grandfather died, my mom in car crash o so, they don't care, they would cheer the fuck out of me, and give me all sorts of funny shit, i owe them >_> just cuz i dont trust you, doesnt mean your not my friend, AND YOU as in everyone, don't read this wrongly noob, just the way it is, its my way, so if u don't like my way, then fine, its just me, dont fucking judge who i am, judge urself before you do...

I really don't know whos my friend and who do i let my heart out on emotions, its boiling inside me i guess ill just keep it in for awhile or maybe a period of time or maybe forever.. don't get me wrong, there are loads of people who were there for me.... were... now they strangers.. met a friend at mcd, ignored me.. nvm lah, just let it be zayd.. just let it be, life aint perfect, so.. ill do what i always do, keep it in, and act nice to everyone (:

The tables are turned..

You know ah today ah, fuish, damn bad mood when i found out lah, its just like shit... til i found this :

I WAS LIKE!! THE FUCK MAN!! THE FUCK!! WHAT IS THIS SHIT!!!!... damn almost fell off my chair laughing xDD damn.. well... bad thing is, gonna avoid talking to people now >_> but meh, dunnow lah PEACE OUT!!!

Vanilla Twilight

The song that has held so many of my memories, all the bad ones, all the good ones, all the happy ones, and all the sad ones, especially form 3.... haih

I know, and don't say that i don't, just cuz i'm not there when i heard it, i still got people telling me whats going on around, and no, i'm not mad, ill just let it be, like i said, SPM.. SPM.. SPM.. Really wanna get that scolarship, so i can join my sister up there, at the northern hemisphere, yeah its sad to leave friends behind, but its the price to pay, when u want to succeed in life, and i wont forget 'em always got facebook, and always got calls and visits.. I'm going to sleep in a while, gazing through my memory box in my mind.....

Headlines...

I know havent been a good bf and all.. and im sorry i ended it by texting.. i wanna say all these stuff but i cant, cuz it doesnt matter any more... sigh.. i just wanna die.. emotions get the best of me.. now im just, playing with a friend to just calm myself down my gut feels like its contracting inside itself so badly really havent been this sad in a long time, but no, i dont expect u to text me like usual, and im not surprised, so guess i wont text u in a while, i really need my bros right now, thank god i got acap and harith and edz, and muhaimin, to cheer me up at school or something... know they arent the best at talking bout girl issues, but they cheer me up and forget bout stuff, they cheered me up more than anyone else, well the good thing is im concentrating more and more on studies, its going smooth and i feel like i can score, but the bad thing is, i feel lonely as fuck, everybody just left me liddat, cept for my bros, thats why i would prefer them, then the interact friends that are so into popularity and all that shit.. i prefer talking to them, then talking to my crush, or my gf, or my ex... or any girl for that matter... my friend is like loosing and we're laughing together xD i died, thats why im writing this .__. but yeah, no one can overcome how close i am to my guy friends rather than girls, soo, if the girls wanna just leave me out on anything, thats fine, im already lonely as fuck, and im not surprised if more and more people forget bout me, i just need my bro's.. and my sisters.. i dont expect u to understand, but if u do then thanks, u dont have to talk to me with ur short texts, i wont waste ur credit, so yeah... my friends doing great, his macro and micro starting to buck up.. still have that sad feeling.. but yeah life aint a bed of roses, they still have thorns in them... first update since UK, so really.. i just quit interact cuz i duwanna feel lonely anymore, make friends in interact then they just ignore me and all.. but hey, i dont mind.. like my mom said.. don't make friends important, be selfish sometimes, ur friends will not always be there for you when u need them, go on by ur own and on ur own to accomplish ur future, and my mom when she scolds me for being out with friends too much, she always asks me "Will davina and all those friends be there for you in the future?" i know the answer is no.. but i just didnt wanna make a fool of myself, if ur saying im too mean, then do so, cuz right now the only ones i call friends are the ones i meet in school everyday, and they guys i meet at tuition, the ones that pick me up when im down..