Well this is my first update since my UK, wow, its been like 3 weeks full of coldness and chillness and and my sister asking me to wash the dishes @____@""" well im finally back and the weather is so freaking hot man! its unbearable!! but nyeh, i came back and i didnt come back alone, i came back with my old friend..... FEVER!!! yesterday i hung out with her and soon, so nice to see her, missed her so much while i was away, and i felt so bad, even if i said sorry so many times i couldnt feel better, its just the way i am .____. whenever someone does something bad, i feel guilty, like WTF?! ah well, i was just raised that way, to always apologize and be nice. but ah well...
Well first day did nothing actually, couldnt find the mosque around Hyde Park, the tube when i took it it was freaking confusing!! its like, 7 or maybe 10 LINES!! and all different colours, i couldnt make my way anywhere, so i just stuck at Piccadilly Circus and just read waterstone books... went to stone henge and Bathe, and freaking hell the Light Garden at the Art Museum was freaking awesome!! IT REALLY WAS FREAKING AWESOME!! and i read this book called Eye of the Moon, and it really is messed up, SERIOUSLY!! it really is the most messed up book i have, i mean come on, what girl has a name Cleavage?!?! it costed like... 8 Pounds? that was bout 40 ringgit, i couldve bought.. em... 2? maybe 3? Horrible history books at Book Xcess? maybe more?? maybe... 4? 5? Idk u tell me, right now im just sitting on my torn up chair jet lagging and now its about, about 10pm there at UK so i might not sleep soon, just listened to like, 10 sad songs just now at Mtv, pretty... pretty sad.. yeah pretty sad... idk what im talking bout, well one of these songs reminded me of my ex. and it just reminded me of all the things i said to her, and i just felt bad, but MAYBE.. just maybe... im not making this up... Santa claus didnt bring up some present for me and gave this to me... just maybe... JUST MAYBE!! I will not be... crazy? these past few days.. idk... but if i do... too bad for you ;D
Its... 6.20am, and i miss her .__. yesterday... i miss yesterday, never say a Lioness in real life face to face... but i guess i did yesterday, bit me til i was bleeding HAHA!!! I still love you :) BUT EVERYTHINGS CHANGING!!! sorry the randomness, listening to second heartbeat :P theres nothing like A7x in the morning babeh!! OMFG OMFG OMFG!!! my sister getting engaged this... Sunday?? talk is on Saturday? sure bout that zayd? yes im very sure about that zayd thank you for asking.. no problem zayd... aight im just being weird, Sister getting married and idk what the hell to wear, well it doesnt matter actually, well it does!!! idk .___. maybe ill just wear my Joker T-Shirt and my GAP jeans... if mommy lets me, i feel like finishing the caramel custard, SERIOUSLY!! its like in the fridge tempting me like some... nevermind.... GAAAH!! stop telling me to eat u custard!! I want u to live!! so the other people MAY DEVOUR YOU!!!
Huh, i duwanna write any more emo stuff no more cuz last time i did that, it did nothing, i mean the pain still inside but writing it down just eases the pain, but the pain comes right back, and some people might get terasa bout what u write, like they think its you and all, eh its normal, i sometimes happen, i mean, IT sometimes happens to me, we're only human PEOPLE!! Well UK was fun, but i would like to have her in my arms, either in UK or here, but sadly she cant come with me to UK so i would prefer going back to M'sia and have her here ^^ shes asleep right now... OOOOOHH!!!!! *omnomnom her tummy* you shall never know what that means :P well woodland friends.. hehe got that from Weazel, too bad he drinks =/ or not i could play his Drinking game when i play games with him, still wonder how he can get so many kills while his drunk -.^ the bloody gay! haha!! sorry weazel, wait... u dont know i have this blog, MUAHAHAHA!! WEAZEL U GAY BASTARD!! alright i'll stop now...
But I love his cat man, his cat is just adorable, and somehow.... SOMEHOW... Davina has a cat and its name is.. SHADOW!! OOOOOOOOOOWH! THE IRONY! gotta contain myself! CONTAIN URSELF ZAYD CONTAIN ZE BLOODLUST WIZIN YOU!!! well, i think imma go play Starcraft 2 now and pawn some noobs, but imma see if weazel is awake, i hope he is :P GOODNIGHT MY LITTLE WOODLAND FRIENDS
~Peace out .:[Z]ay[D]:.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
Long time no update
Wow, long time i never touch my blogger!! well, nothing to say actually, yesterday had an awesome time taking care of kids, met this lil chinese girl called Lim Yee Xuan, she was soooo cute, always wore my jester hat and my big black gloves, and other lil kids, they were so cute, had a great time playing with them, eating with them, haha, miss them already =/ and i got payed :P
I got 1 more day... wait.. wtf.. 1 MORE DAY?!?! shiT!! never even packed yet >___< gonna be there for 3 weeks man, gonna freeze ma balls off .__. least i get some alone time, still feel bad bought not keeping my promise, hope she'll be fine without me, going McD today, dunnow wether to go tuition o not today, maybe not, maybe yes, see first lah, bye bye, im going to go play games now ...
I got 1 more day... wait.. wtf.. 1 MORE DAY?!?! shiT!! never even packed yet >___< gonna be there for 3 weeks man, gonna freeze ma balls off .__. least i get some alone time, still feel bad bought not keeping my promise, hope she'll be fine without me, going McD today, dunnow wether to go tuition o not today, maybe not, maybe yes, see first lah, bye bye, im going to go play games now ...
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
i have so much to say but your so far away...
I know things arent like last time, but that doesnt mean we cant let go of the past? The past is just a piece of our mind, and can be ignored and forgetting, making new space for much more cheerfull memories rather than sad, u and me didnt last a month, but i miss everyday of it with you, especially the last night at mcd, i walked u back home, gave u a big hug, and went back to mcd to join the others, even though u broke up with me, im okay with that, it wasnt a mistake, and i respect that, truthfully i think it was better if we did, u needed to study, and i think i was getting distracted... wait... i always am xD well it was better for you, not for me, but hey, i rather choose whats best for you than for me...
sorry if i pissed u off or made like i cared but didnt care if i did... soz.. i do still care, but if u dun think that, than so shall it be... i wont stop ur denial, ill just accept it, and if u think this is so hard to believe, okay then, i dun mind if u just say this is some crap or bullshit, fine by me, im just saying what i wanna say, i don't need you to critic my words, i just want u to read it and understand, i dun know if u lied or if it was the truth, bout the reason u broke up with me, heh, guess ill never learn the truth, i know.. cuz u'll never tell me, like the reasons why u never told me why u chose me, the reasons why u always hugged me... it will always remain a mystery in my head that would never be solved
Like the mystery of why the fuck am i crazy?? LOL!! If u dun wanna read this then fine... so be it.. dun wanna believe this... fine... if u think i never cared bout u... so the days when i asked a hug, i comfirt you when ur bored, or always talked to u when ur mom pissess u off, or when i always webcammed you, and when u fell asleep i din bother waking u up cuz i din wanna bother u, and heck i din even get the first chance i got when i had a chance to go for the girl i wanted last year when she broke up with her bf... no... i stayed.. cuz i knew.. deep down inside u had feelings for me... but now guess those feelings have burned into ashes... just like my soul - -"
sorry if i pissed u off or made like i cared but didnt care if i did... soz.. i do still care, but if u dun think that, than so shall it be... i wont stop ur denial, ill just accept it, and if u think this is so hard to believe, okay then, i dun mind if u just say this is some crap or bullshit, fine by me, im just saying what i wanna say, i don't need you to critic my words, i just want u to read it and understand, i dun know if u lied or if it was the truth, bout the reason u broke up with me, heh, guess ill never learn the truth, i know.. cuz u'll never tell me, like the reasons why u never told me why u chose me, the reasons why u always hugged me... it will always remain a mystery in my head that would never be solved
Like the mystery of why the fuck am i crazy?? LOL!! If u dun wanna read this then fine... so be it.. dun wanna believe this... fine... if u think i never cared bout u... so the days when i asked a hug, i comfirt you when ur bored, or always talked to u when ur mom pissess u off, or when i always webcammed you, and when u fell asleep i din bother waking u up cuz i din wanna bother u, and heck i din even get the first chance i got when i had a chance to go for the girl i wanted last year when she broke up with her bf... no... i stayed.. cuz i knew.. deep down inside u had feelings for me... but now guess those feelings have burned into ashes... just like my soul - -"
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Best Lyrics i've heard so far...
I love you,
You were ready,
your pain is strong despite,
but ill see you,
when HE lets me,
Your pain is gone,
your hands are tied!!
So far away,
and i need you to know,
SO FAR AWAY!!!
and i need you to,
to need you to know
<3
You were ready,
your pain is strong despite,
but ill see you,
when HE lets me,
Your pain is gone,
your hands are tied!!
So far away,
and i need you to know,
SO FAR AWAY!!!
and i need you to,
to need you to know
<3
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
If you guys are wondering if i have a new post...
Its on April month, thanks... its 6.15am and im listening to sad owl city songs before i go to school, gonna play basketball with dal and go follow raj and dal go somewhere tomorrow since nothing to do on sports day, so far nothing has changed, never really talked to her, today saw her going back with her mom right infront of me, but i guess doesnt matter if i said hi or not, owh well, i am gonna be soooo sleepy today, woke up 3am and didn't sleep till then, why u ask? don't ask..
Astro kao kao nothing edi, cannot even watch tv, my dad in johor, as usual, moms asleep upstairs, EATING POPCORN MAH SISTER BOUGHT! at 6.15 am .____. if i get diabetes, who cares.. DBA damn awesome lah... cant stop listening to em, its just a matter the fact that they screamo like shit awesome balls on fire!!! \m/
Maybe gonna follow ooi go around helping her friend by her chinese fan for sivik thing, yesterday tuition bio, hmmm, sat at the back cuz of dav, so didn't really pay attention, and she kept asking me what was this and what was that, CANT U SEE WOMAN! lol, i guess she cannot see black coloured words SORRY DAV xDD
OWH DAMN CRAP a dog chased me, was at a junction going into a housing area, suddenly saw a dog, so i cycled slowly passed it, then it chased me like i was some sort of meat bone or something, when i finally lost it, i was at another junction going into main road, and there was another dog that chased me!! so i had to go back the road i came, which i met the previous dog, so both of em chased me til masjid, and then i just settled there.
After that i went to the clinic, just to check on my cough, think its getting worse, and why the fuck does every cough medicine have to make u drowsy?!?! OWH! OWH! today bio knew how to make alcohol using only beras LAWL MUCH! never gonna try it though, whats the point of getting drunk? people can prank u or some sort of shit. WOW wrote alot even though its like 6.30am already! bus gonna be here in 10 minutes and DBA is screaming in my ear xDD
What else? HAHA my bro dal gonna get raped in the sketch for our IU!! damn my shield o so not yet done, how ah? how to get 10 shields fully operational by saturday?! stupid siva with his pengawas thing and abusing his power, imma kick his ass in bball today!! Wow, its like everyday i meet new friends, sunday WS met a girl named, JiaYun (WHICH I NEVER THOUGHT WOULD BE HER!) Chelsia, and Lidya?? o.o and a guy named Jay Jay and Joshua! weirdly all chinese .___. hung out with Dom, the 5 people up there ^ and and sanjiiv and shashee... owh and vie also!!|
Somehow i've been sleeping more and more in class these days, damn weird lah, we barely learn but our grades are normal, DA FUCK?! well i got tuition so can be explained, prefer tuition than school, maybe gonna quit lah AC, beginning to not... feel... comfortable in sejarah -.-" well buh bye, going to school now, see yah
Astro kao kao nothing edi, cannot even watch tv, my dad in johor, as usual, moms asleep upstairs, EATING POPCORN MAH SISTER BOUGHT! at 6.15 am .____. if i get diabetes, who cares.. DBA damn awesome lah... cant stop listening to em, its just a matter the fact that they screamo like shit awesome balls on fire!!! \m/
Maybe gonna follow ooi go around helping her friend by her chinese fan for sivik thing, yesterday tuition bio, hmmm, sat at the back cuz of dav, so didn't really pay attention, and she kept asking me what was this and what was that, CANT U SEE WOMAN! lol, i guess she cannot see black coloured words SORRY DAV xDD
OWH DAMN CRAP a dog chased me, was at a junction going into a housing area, suddenly saw a dog, so i cycled slowly passed it, then it chased me like i was some sort of meat bone or something, when i finally lost it, i was at another junction going into main road, and there was another dog that chased me!! so i had to go back the road i came, which i met the previous dog, so both of em chased me til masjid, and then i just settled there.
After that i went to the clinic, just to check on my cough, think its getting worse, and why the fuck does every cough medicine have to make u drowsy?!?! OWH! OWH! today bio knew how to make alcohol using only beras LAWL MUCH! never gonna try it though, whats the point of getting drunk? people can prank u or some sort of shit. WOW wrote alot even though its like 6.30am already! bus gonna be here in 10 minutes and DBA is screaming in my ear xDD
What else? HAHA my bro dal gonna get raped in the sketch for our IU!! damn my shield o so not yet done, how ah? how to get 10 shields fully operational by saturday?! stupid siva with his pengawas thing and abusing his power, imma kick his ass in bball today!! Wow, its like everyday i meet new friends, sunday WS met a girl named, JiaYun (WHICH I NEVER THOUGHT WOULD BE HER!) Chelsia, and Lidya?? o.o and a guy named Jay Jay and Joshua! weirdly all chinese .___. hung out with Dom, the 5 people up there ^ and and sanjiiv and shashee... owh and vie also!!|
Somehow i've been sleeping more and more in class these days, damn weird lah, we barely learn but our grades are normal, DA FUCK?! well i got tuition so can be explained, prefer tuition than school, maybe gonna quit lah AC, beginning to not... feel... comfortable in sejarah -.-" well buh bye, going to school now, see yah
Monday, July 18, 2011
CHUCHAWANA!!!!
Hehe, sup sup... long time never update blog edi, malas leh .__. idk what to say!! Saturday.. was... awesome!! played pool with WONG LEGEND! wtf, why baru nak update blog, mom here and ruins it all -.-" uhm... so far i've watch TF 3, KP 2, GL, uhm and... uhm HP 7!! :D most of these days i text Ooi :) HAHA! today almost got caught by teacher listening to my mp3, when she calling me i just mind my own business xD pastu out of her sight CABUT AH!!
Feel like killing myself these days.. LAWL! today mese agama tertidur o.e shit... tomorrow PJ and Chess... fuck i got no chance of winning leh, its like 100 to 0 o.e with Ishak and Chai and all those crappy people!!! damn im so tired... cycled with Arif whole pj.. its good to exercise, met Sharyl and da gang! :D
Just now arif kena kejar ngan anjing! HAH! CAKAP BANYAK KAWAN SAITAN LAGI! xDD it was good cycling, releasing all meh stress and all meh anger..... and all meh sadness... but come back tired as hell leh... blech, this Owl City song is making me emo as hell =.=" and i hope ooi is asleep... well then, gd nightz people...
Feel like killing myself these days.. LAWL! today mese agama tertidur o.e shit... tomorrow PJ and Chess... fuck i got no chance of winning leh, its like 100 to 0 o.e with Ishak and Chai and all those crappy people!!! damn im so tired... cycled with Arif whole pj.. its good to exercise, met Sharyl and da gang! :D
Just now arif kena kejar ngan anjing! HAH! CAKAP BANYAK KAWAN SAITAN LAGI! xDD it was good cycling, releasing all meh stress and all meh anger..... and all meh sadness... but come back tired as hell leh... blech, this Owl City song is making me emo as hell =.=" and i hope ooi is asleep... well then, gd nightz people...
Thursday, July 14, 2011
DRINK THE POISON FWEAK!
OOOOOHHHH SSSSSSSHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTT!!!! awesome shit man... just awesome shit.. AH AWESOME SHIT! what is this shit? i cant tell yah.. sorry... these days... damn these days have been so awesome.... but umrah... each time i go to the masjid i always think of you.. and i pray for u .__. haih.... ooohh i wonder wtf is mrryyh? O.O its such a weird name... listening to the beast and the harlot FTW!!! and texting KY... idk... not much to say, din go to school today, tomorrow is school, and got pj ftw... OWH SHIT LISAAAAAAAAAAANN!!!!!!!!! LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANN!!! .___. gtg now buh bye
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Failures
my life, full of failures, LOL! ya know, primary school, never got the girl i liked, infact, she ignored me the whole time, UPSR got 3 A's mom and dad were dissapointed, uhm, form 1 til 2 failed agama, and din get even straight A's, form 3, fell for a girl, waited for one year, ended up rejecting me, uhm, got 5A's, mom and dad very dissapointed, this year, fell for a girl... got her, and she broke up with me... guess no girl wants me, might as well be gay...
Forgive me for my mistakes,
even though they are as deep as lakes,
numbers exceeding millions,
mistakes the number of billions,
I do not know whats wrong,
or maybe im just not strong,
I have made so many wrong doings,
and friended unwanted things,
might sound sad and tacky,
my only friend was a catty,
he always was there when i wanted him,
too bad he died and i was alone again,
I maybe surrounded by friends,
but my mood. it depends..
I liked a girl since so many years,
too bad she left me in tears,
this year i thought it was different,
with the girl i am liking current,
Though it went smoothly at first,
but some happy moments gotta burst,
dumped and alone again,
Since no lives are at stake,
I just may be Gods Only Mistake...
Forgive me for my mistakes,
even though they are as deep as lakes,
numbers exceeding millions,
mistakes the number of billions,
I do not know whats wrong,
or maybe im just not strong,
I have made so many wrong doings,
and friended unwanted things,
might sound sad and tacky,
my only friend was a catty,
he always was there when i wanted him,
too bad he died and i was alone again,
I maybe surrounded by friends,
but my mood. it depends..
I liked a girl since so many years,
too bad she left me in tears,
this year i thought it was different,
with the girl i am liking current,
Though it went smoothly at first,
but some happy moments gotta burst,
dumped and alone again,
Since no lives are at stake,
I just may be Gods Only Mistake...
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Lt. M Killa just makes me laugh so badly!!!
"Like if im gonna die like 10 or 20 times or 4376 times, so at least if i die 437 fucking 6 times, i listen to decent god damn music not fucking a bunch of fucking fairies hangin around a god damn harp fucking cupid fucking strumming shootin out arrows at peoples assholes and shit, FUCK THAT SHIT!! we're gonna play this shit hardcore and imma yell at the screen like a stupid *he dies in the game* MOTHERFUCKER!!! BALLSACKS!!!!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA damnit dude, u never seem to amaze me (: u needa chill...
AWESOME!! damn the game damn hard lah xDD its called "The Impossible" game xDD dayummm
HAHAHAHAHAHA damnit dude, u never seem to amaze me (: u needa chill...
AWESOME!! damn the game damn hard lah xDD its called "The Impossible" game xDD dayummm
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Sup Mah Dawgs...
heh no emo today.... dun wan emo... so hard not to be, BUT GOD DAMNIT U CANT JUST GO AROUND SOBBING AND ALL!!! she may be ur first... but maybe she wont be ur last? haih.. eh i said no emo.. k... todayy well starting of school everyone was like doing their Add Maths... so i thought of doing it also.. starting off was Mentor menti WHICH I SLEPT THROUGH THE WHOLE THING!! YESS!! no needa hear my menti babling, then it was Add Maths, dayum, i think it was just damn easy, 2 pracitices and formative, finish in 10 minutes, awesome weyh... then other subs and rehat...
then finish school, malas ah nak cakap tentang the other stuff, then me, dal and siva went to play bball... WE GOT OWNED LIKE SHIT MAN!!! damn malu weyh!! 11-1 T_T dayum.... then we went SA to take siva's tickets WHICH I HAD TO PAY FOR! bloody fat ass cant even keep a promise, dah lah Ky in a bad mood, damn worrying bout ky, she bad thise whole week .___. haih.. OWH OWH!! huh, mysteriously i knew alot of em at SA edi xDD owh well... then we went to play bball again, AGAIN WE LOST! damn karat edi lah o.e
Then went to Sa just walk around, sat here sat there, then saw Kai, Marina and Fatiah coming out... then i saw Kai at the gate, wanted to surprise her, when running towards her... nampak eli... god damnit man... wanted to say hi, but i know she wont say back so nvm lah, just leave her alone jap.... and then just talked to Kai, marina and fatiah, then kai went off, so just talked to marina bout Carnival, she say its going badly! NO VENUE!!!! how can this be?!?! Haha then just went back and played bball again, fell damn sick, seriously headache was killing me, but pain is pain right? and like anyone would care... walked to Grandmas house and just pengsan on the bed... then woke up and started to text ky... reached my grandmas at like 6? then went back home at 9 ==" mum bought KFC!! WEEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEW!! heh, now im just playing SMK with dav! YEAH I OWN HER MAN!!! XD and listening to eminem, well nitez ;)
then finish school, malas ah nak cakap tentang the other stuff, then me, dal and siva went to play bball... WE GOT OWNED LIKE SHIT MAN!!! damn malu weyh!! 11-1 T_T dayum.... then we went SA to take siva's tickets WHICH I HAD TO PAY FOR! bloody fat ass cant even keep a promise, dah lah Ky in a bad mood, damn worrying bout ky, she bad thise whole week .___. haih.. OWH OWH!! huh, mysteriously i knew alot of em at SA edi xDD owh well... then we went to play bball again, AGAIN WE LOST! damn karat edi lah o.e
Then went to Sa just walk around, sat here sat there, then saw Kai, Marina and Fatiah coming out... then i saw Kai at the gate, wanted to surprise her, when running towards her... nampak eli... god damnit man... wanted to say hi, but i know she wont say back so nvm lah, just leave her alone jap.... and then just talked to Kai, marina and fatiah, then kai went off, so just talked to marina bout Carnival, she say its going badly! NO VENUE!!!! how can this be?!?! Haha then just went back and played bball again, fell damn sick, seriously headache was killing me, but pain is pain right? and like anyone would care... walked to Grandmas house and just pengsan on the bed... then woke up and started to text ky... reached my grandmas at like 6? then went back home at 9 ==" mum bought KFC!! WEEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEW!! heh, now im just playing SMK with dav! YEAH I OWN HER MAN!!! XD and listening to eminem, well nitez ;)
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
May not be together, but ur still am my lil wan :'l
idk whut to say, first time im really sad this year... and first time i shed a tear, in so many years... damn.... nothing can cheer me up right now.. i just feel soooo sad god damnit.. i know shes not dead, and i can still see her, but i just feel, she just aint mine no more u____u haih... dammnniitt, wanna get over, but i just cant :/ needa shoot my heart out, fuck the world... either way, i still love her, no matter whut (:
Thursday, June 2, 2011
FUCK YOU BITCH!!! t(==t)
fuck off u uncaring peace of shit of a person!!! FUCK YOU!!!imma kill u using mah
BUNNY TANK!
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Sunday, May 8, 2011
Fucked up..
FUCK TODAY!! FUCK TODAY!! I GIVE IT A BIG _l_!!!! FUCKING SHIT!! the most happiest day become the fuckest uped day of the year... fuck it lah... bullshit, full of bullshit, imma break anyones face if they bother me tmmrw in school, shitfaces... bloody fucked up day... >:[ i just wanna break someones face, thank god i din break some strangers face when cycling he almost hit me... fucked up fella don't know how to drive. MOM NEVER TEACH U AH? U SON OF A BITCH!!! -.-"" great sweet shit.... wtver lah fucked up people of the world... imma turn gay!!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
My Life
Ya know, if u think im not worth at all, then leave me, im use to people leaving me behind, or just abandoning me just like that, its okay, i've stopped caring since my dad told me i was a piece of nothing when i was a kid, i be happy most of the times, so that i wont be reminded of all the stuff of how my shitty life is, i know, u think that ya know, i don't care, i don't understand you, or something else, if u think im not worth it, then move on, im okay with that, huh, last year waited for a girl for a year, and she ended up going to someone else, hehe, makes me laugh... .____. i've lived with disappointments and things turning me down for something else, you wanna leave me, stop loving, wanna love someone else better than me, okay, fine, ur choice, the front door of my life is always open, u wanna leave my life, remember to shut the door on ur way out... u say i don't care... its not that i don't care... its just im use to the crap i go through everyday, its like my daily routine... morning : mom nags, and blames me for everything she goes through, afternoon : dad smokes outside at the porch comes in during lunch if i do something wrong he'll yell at me, night : nagging from both and asking me to do this do that, if my eldest sis nags is a bonus.... eheh, whenever my dad says i got no brain or no tongue i just smile and think of my pets, that would never leave me, they died, i know its sad, but hey, at home in this neighberhood and in my life, my bestfriend was always dal, cuz no matter what i do or no matter what he did, we will always stick together, but now, i feel like im loosing him, maybe i was made to be a loner, loner just walking across the lands... haha, i bet if i marry some girl out there shes gonna cheat on me on this hotter guy.... i wont be surprised if that happens... im not a guy that becomes mad easily, i just get irritated, never yelled at anyone in my life though... i know, if i get any gf in my life, she'll end up see-ing me as a weirdo freak gay, and ending up breaking up with me.... yeaahh, maybe i should turn gay... .___. nah i'd rather die, but hey ya know, even though life is shit, i always got friends, and if the whole lot of em leave me, its okay, everyones gotta move on once in a while, i need myself, i and me... thats all i need, cuz even though people think "omg im seeing this post, im gonna go be his friend" yeah they say that once they see this post, but after a few weeks they forget and leave you to rot in ur freaking life... sooo... if u wanna leave me, leave me, u can stop loving me, u can stop caring for me, even though i care bout everyone in my life, i know they don't care much bout me at all, soooo go on, live ur life, no point having me as ur burden... go... u don't have to be my care taker or anything... haha, i wont be surprised if i die alone... thats good actually, no one to get all sad when i die, no one to be at my funeral, no one to cry over my dead body, so its better if i stay alone, me alone = no one gets hurt when something happens to me..
So go if u think im just a tall guy with loads of friends, go if u think i don't care bout chu, or love you..... the door is open... i've been left so many times i've gotten use to it already...
So go if u think im just a tall guy with loads of friends, go if u think i don't care bout chu, or love you..... the door is open... i've been left so many times i've gotten use to it already...
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
another DAYUM!!!
WOWOWOWOW!!! today i slept through agama, freaking class din wake me up, semua orang baca doa i sesat sleeping on my table -.-"" then i had FUTSAL!! first time this year we had all guys futsal! WHEN EVERYONE WAS THERE!! in school... awesome shit lah, today went to picadilly, penat doh -.-"" slept at 3am cuz just only got WOW3 from DALLY!!! XDD hehe, so tired la, i was so tired malas wanna layan anyone, eheh, lil one looked pretty and cute in her pink.. erm... top??? x3 awwwwwwwwwww blech .____. eheh, dav fuck off!! i can be mushy when i want toooo!!!
Hmmm, after that we like walked around Mil Square, empty place, we ditched Eli!! and went somewhere else, i like kesian her lah x] so i went back out lah and saw her standing at the end of the escalator, haha, so then yeah we just walked, azim's driver came early, kent asked azim to say Fuck Off to his driver o.O weirdo.... then yeah we just walked to eli's house and terserempak with her mom! xD I waved as she drove by, we ended up infront of her house le..
We wanted to go in her house, but mom say must pay or do some chores -.- wtf.... i was like nvm lah auntie... then suddenly Azim go shout "must do something lah for your son-in-law" to eli's mom and i was like WHAT THE FUCK YOU FREAKING SHIT ASS WHORING PEDOFILING MANWHORING SIAL PUNYA MAK TAK AJAR!!!! then i malu edi wana show ma face -.-"""" i wanted to play bball wif em, but my mom sudah sampai at da school so had to go back :P
Alaaa .___. lil wan has been sad these days, WHAT DID I DO!!!
Bunny : WHAT DID YOU DO??
Zady : YEAH LAH WHAT DID YOU DO?!?!
Zayd : I don't know!!
Bunny : You must've been a jerk to her
Zady : YEAH LAH!! go emo emo some more, idiot
Zayd : FINE LAH!! no more emo-ing sick bitch...
Bunny & Zady : *thumbs up*
LAWL!! Bapak lifeless siall.... guess should spend more time? if got leh, dun emo lah, emo is for at home zayd... haih, i miss her edi... damnit... im gonna ring Azim's neck for saying that to her mom =="""" _l_ bloody perv.... haih... *sigh*
Bunny : WHAT DID I JUST TELL YOU BOUT BEING EMO!?!
Zayd : Chill la, just... dun know..
Bunny : WTF!!! *Slaps*
Zayd : Your just like Davina!!
Bunny : eh i white bunny kay not black bunny xDD
Listening to Lazy Song... awesome song lah, okay okay, Friday i give her full attention??? yes?? no?? well must pay attention to studies o so lah, but dun emo emo lah, make her smile ^^ and.. ya know... THE PLAN!! make sure nu one kacau again -.-"""
BYE BYE!!!
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Hmmm, after that we like walked around Mil Square, empty place, we ditched Eli!! and went somewhere else, i like kesian her lah x] so i went back out lah and saw her standing at the end of the escalator, haha, so then yeah we just walked, azim's driver came early, kent asked azim to say Fuck Off to his driver o.O weirdo.... then yeah we just walked to eli's house and terserempak with her mom! xD I waved as she drove by, we ended up infront of her house le..
We wanted to go in her house, but mom say must pay or do some chores -.- wtf.... i was like nvm lah auntie... then suddenly Azim go shout "must do something lah for your son-in-law" to eli's mom and i was like WHAT THE FUCK YOU FREAKING SHIT ASS WHORING PEDOFILING MANWHORING SIAL PUNYA MAK TAK AJAR!!!! then i malu edi wana show ma face -.-"""" i wanted to play bball wif em, but my mom sudah sampai at da school so had to go back :P
Alaaa .___. lil wan has been sad these days, WHAT DID I DO!!!
Bunny : WHAT DID YOU DO??
Zady : YEAH LAH WHAT DID YOU DO?!?!
Zayd : I don't know!!
Bunny : You must've been a jerk to her
Zady : YEAH LAH!! go emo emo some more, idiot
Zayd : FINE LAH!! no more emo-ing sick bitch...
Bunny & Zady : *thumbs up*
LAWL!! Bapak lifeless siall.... guess should spend more time? if got leh, dun emo lah, emo is for at home zayd... haih, i miss her edi... damnit... im gonna ring Azim's neck for saying that to her mom =="""" _l_ bloody perv.... haih... *sigh*
Bunny : WHAT DID I JUST TELL YOU BOUT BEING EMO!?!
Zayd : Chill la, just... dun know..
Bunny : WTF!!! *Slaps*
Zayd : Your just like Davina!!
Bunny : eh i white bunny kay not black bunny xDD
Listening to Lazy Song... awesome song lah, okay okay, Friday i give her full attention??? yes?? no?? well must pay attention to studies o so lah, but dun emo emo lah, make her smile ^^ and.. ya know... THE PLAN!! make sure nu one kacau again -.-"""
BYE BYE!!!
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Saturday, April 23, 2011
huh, weirdly i cant send texts to anyone o.o whats going on????? damn, i feel like webbying now!! NO ONE ONLINE TO WEBBY WIF!!! AAAAAGGHHH!! seriously just so damn bored, owh owh! today went to arena and practiced, well not practice, we were teacher some girls and guys how to dance, i mean dance moves, this guy we thought baby freeze, he got it terus! but azzam and azim were like, damn surprised, i wasnt, i was like, okay??? i said to him "SHOW ME" then he showed me, and i was like, wtf, so many mistakes, so i corrected him la, i made him do baby freeze for 10 secs, he shaking so badly, i think he wanted to pee or something, form 1s.... hmmmm
owh, owh, me and azzam were like playing Ghost Recon on his lappy, and Nabil was beside us kacau-ing pressing this and that buttons, no life gay xDD hmmm, what else? owh, i ajak davina come arena, and she did, kinda late, but nvm, owh owh!! it was like raining damn heavily, and me, azzam and a form 1 girl named, typhanie? tiphanie?? o.o idk how to spell, we play, i made a kick and fell, my ass was wet xD poor dal, i ajak him play futsal, but it rained so tak leh, hmmm..
Lil one called me ;] i thought it was Aina for one second, but when i heard her laugh i know eli edi :3 she was wasting her grandmothers credit... sweat much??? huh, talked for like 20 minutes like that i guess, cycled back, CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT MY MOM ACTUALLY THOUGHT I WENT SOMEWHERE ELSE CUZ OF MY FB PROFILE PIC! she thought i lied and went to my friends house damn her....
CRY ME A RIVERR!! song im listening to now, tmmrw most probably going to arena again, gonna just hang with the others there, eli going with nabil to his jamming thing *note not peanut butter and jam, jam as in guitar, drums and all that* <===== you would be a pretty dumb ass if u think that... i think tmmrw morning, it'll just be, me, dav, soon, maybe azzam? and asyraf, i guess.... since azim o so going to Digital Mall, or maybe ill play some bball while waiting for everyone tmmrw?? maybe now, idk :P texted with Ky all day ^^ now cannot edi o.o idk why, something wrong with the line i guess, stupid hotlink, well thats all i guess....
owh, owh, me and azzam were like playing Ghost Recon on his lappy, and Nabil was beside us kacau-ing pressing this and that buttons, no life gay xDD hmmm, what else? owh, i ajak davina come arena, and she did, kinda late, but nvm, owh owh!! it was like raining damn heavily, and me, azzam and a form 1 girl named, typhanie? tiphanie?? o.o idk how to spell, we play, i made a kick and fell, my ass was wet xD poor dal, i ajak him play futsal, but it rained so tak leh, hmmm..
Lil one called me ;] i thought it was Aina for one second, but when i heard her laugh i know eli edi :3 she was wasting her grandmothers credit... sweat much??? huh, talked for like 20 minutes like that i guess, cycled back, CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT MY MOM ACTUALLY THOUGHT I WENT SOMEWHERE ELSE CUZ OF MY FB PROFILE PIC! she thought i lied and went to my friends house damn her....
CRY ME A RIVERR!! song im listening to now, tmmrw most probably going to arena again, gonna just hang with the others there, eli going with nabil to his jamming thing *note not peanut butter and jam, jam as in guitar, drums and all that* <===== you would be a pretty dumb ass if u think that... i think tmmrw morning, it'll just be, me, dav, soon, maybe azzam? and asyraf, i guess.... since azim o so going to Digital Mall, or maybe ill play some bball while waiting for everyone tmmrw?? maybe now, idk :P texted with Ky all day ^^ now cannot edi o.o idk why, something wrong with the line i guess, stupid hotlink, well thats all i guess....
Thursday, April 21, 2011
This post was made on 21st of April 2011
Aight aight, erm.. where do i start? hmmm... aight.... me and the boys gonna make our own jerseys! and i had some epicly epic designs, i borrowed Kai's bball jersey for some guidance, came up with some names for our team : Knights, Noob Team (our old name), Phoenix, Vortex Accumilators and some others...
Now back to the matter at hand... ya know, i don't wanna be secretive at all, just wanna blurt out her name, the girl i love is... Elina :] i don't care what people think nowadays those pervs at the side of the street giving me the look when im walking beside eli, the purple elephant in Pocoyo xDD i know ive asked and took back the question... and i know for the girl last year, i waited for a whole year for her answer, and i waited for eli for like not even a month, that shows nothing!! i took it back cuz, i saw around her, she had so many other guys to choose from, one could play awesome bball, another could play guitar and could sing, all of em were handsome hot guys... and i thought i wasnt good enough for her, i mean, all i do is annoy people and draw... thats not much talent now is it? ._____.
But my buds seem to open my eyes and realize, that she too likes me back, and i will ask again! and nu buts im not gonna take it back, and this time.... IM GONNA ASK FACE 2 FACE!! i aint gonna be a pussy anymore... don't care if people make fun of me, i want her, and maybe she wants me? and i gonna make my move before someone else takes her, its just a matter of time and place, just now, i went to her house, wanted to ask her, but her mom was there... and it would be awkward if i asked infront of her mom O.O so i had to call it off xDD
Haih.... i miss her, that day i forgot to hug her... i regretted it and i couldnt sleep, wow sounds so lame, but its the truth, and ya know, idk ._____. i just love her alot, feel protective over her, and if anyone starts talking bout her boobs infront of me imma break that pervs neck xD i know a lot of guys like her, A LOT!!!! but i dun give a shit, i would get my ass beat up just to be with her... if anyone can beat my ass that is, tomorrow maybe im gonna have to fight someone, who cares, i would like to see him beat my ass....
I LOVE YOU ELI!!! ^_^ i dont care whatever people say bout this, im just gonna say it...
[this does not matter anymore, even though i still have feelings for u, always know never will be good between me and u, so nvm... best is to live our lives]
Now back to the matter at hand... ya know, i don't wanna be secretive at all, just wanna blurt out her name, the girl i love is... Elina :] i don't care what people think nowadays those pervs at the side of the street giving me the look when im walking beside eli, the purple elephant in Pocoyo xDD i know ive asked and took back the question... and i know for the girl last year, i waited for a whole year for her answer, and i waited for eli for like not even a month, that shows nothing!! i took it back cuz, i saw around her, she had so many other guys to choose from, one could play awesome bball, another could play guitar and could sing, all of em were handsome hot guys... and i thought i wasnt good enough for her, i mean, all i do is annoy people and draw... thats not much talent now is it? ._____.
But my buds seem to open my eyes and realize, that she too likes me back, and i will ask again! and nu buts im not gonna take it back, and this time.... IM GONNA ASK FACE 2 FACE!! i aint gonna be a pussy anymore... don't care if people make fun of me, i want her, and maybe she wants me? and i gonna make my move before someone else takes her, its just a matter of time and place, just now, i went to her house, wanted to ask her, but her mom was there... and it would be awkward if i asked infront of her mom O.O so i had to call it off xDD
Haih.... i miss her, that day i forgot to hug her... i regretted it and i couldnt sleep, wow sounds so lame, but its the truth, and ya know, idk ._____. i just love her alot, feel protective over her, and if anyone starts talking bout her boobs infront of me imma break that pervs neck xD i know a lot of guys like her, A LOT!!!! but i dun give a shit, i would get my ass beat up just to be with her... if anyone can beat my ass that is, tomorrow maybe im gonna have to fight someone, who cares, i would like to see him beat my ass....
I LOVE YOU ELI!!! ^_^ i dont care whatever people say bout this, im just gonna say it...
[this does not matter anymore, even though i still have feelings for u, always know never will be good between me and u, so nvm... best is to live our lives]
Monday, April 11, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
N.C.C.W.I.F.A.Y.N. [guess what it stands for]
feel worse than when i threw up the 8 bottles of coke just now, couldnt sleep, either it was cuz the aircond..... or the thing i did tonight.... i mean, in life ur suppose to regret nothing, and make the most of it.... i dun know what to say bout this.... i dun knw if its good or bad, i mean, i don't know... feel like crapping shit, din laugh through a whole episode of How I Met Your Mother, nor the Simpsons... i just don't know, don't wanna discuss bout it on my blog, even though no one reads it.... just.... maybe she thinks i thought it was a game, but, hey if she reads my blog or doesnt, i just wanna say is, i really loved you, i really did, more than you know, and even though i just couldn't think of anything to say to you during the times ur mom were making u pissed off or u had ur problems.... i always wanted to help you, i just din know what to say, and im sorry, if ur happy, if ur sad... im just sorry...... but i will always be ur bunny :]
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Saturday, March 19, 2011
Shangri La and Hot Air Balloons!!
WOOOOWW!! when my dad said a fancy hotel i din know IT WAS THIS FANCY!! :O but this is wicked man!! so quiet and got WiFi.... awesome... food was okay, not better than Hilton in KK, but it was okay, imma bout to go swim, yesterday night was awesome man!! Saw a hot air balloon in the shape of Doraemon!!! 8DD it was so cute :] and and and webby-ed with DAV!!! lil weirdo talking weird xD and listening to her and eli having a chat :3
Listening to INVASION!!!! damn nice song, thanks dal ;] im freezing my ass off here!! LITERALLY!!!! its just so damn cold i think i've peed 5 times already!! woke up with my phone on the floor ==""
WELL!! the good thing is i don't snore xD so my sisters snored and i was ganjil but good ;D .... bye now, going swimming!!
[EMO] Fuck off if u don't wanna read it....
sometimes i dun even think u know im there, i mean i just stand there and u just don't look at me, my usual self i would just not give a fuck, but i dun knw whuts happening to me, i've begin to "CARE" MORE!!?!? like WTF!! i dun care, dun care bout any shit cept friends, if the do shit stuff to me, they can just go kiss my ass lah, my bro's will always be here, maybe.... but i know some will be by my side, like asyraf and dal and chris.... and the girls maybe ooi and dav... but the others, their beginning to piss me off really.... really bad... >_> and im in love with a girl that thinks im a piece of dirt... so why cant i just move on?? so many people saying she's just a bitch, i kept saying to myself thats not true, but her actions... are making me slowly and slowly believe that....
Listening to INVASION!!!! damn nice song, thanks dal ;] im freezing my ass off here!! LITERALLY!!!! its just so damn cold i think i've peed 5 times already!! woke up with my phone on the floor ==""
WELL!! the good thing is i don't snore xD so my sisters snored and i was ganjil but good ;D .... bye now, going swimming!!
[EMO] Fuck off if u don't wanna read it....
sometimes i dun even think u know im there, i mean i just stand there and u just don't look at me, my usual self i would just not give a fuck, but i dun knw whuts happening to me, i've begin to "CARE" MORE!!?!? like WTF!! i dun care, dun care bout any shit cept friends, if the do shit stuff to me, they can just go kiss my ass lah, my bro's will always be here, maybe.... but i know some will be by my side, like asyraf and dal and chris.... and the girls maybe ooi and dav... but the others, their beginning to piss me off really.... really bad... >_> and im in love with a girl that thinks im a piece of dirt... so why cant i just move on?? so many people saying she's just a bitch, i kept saying to myself thats not true, but her actions... are making me slowly and slowly believe that....
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
My new crew :D
WOW!! this year friends increased,
but sadly more cats deceased,
entered a dance group,
hang together in a coup :D
feel for a special someone,
who couldnt feel for anyone,
so i guess ill try my best,
and leave all the rest,
just joking bout leaving everything,
cuz im not gonna sacrifice everything,
just for a girl,
even though shes the whirll
EH!! EPIC FAIL LAH THIS POEM!! malas wanna continue ah .____. its 5am whut do u expect?! gd night all....
but sadly more cats deceased,
entered a dance group,
hang together in a coup :D
feel for a special someone,
who couldnt feel for anyone,
so i guess ill try my best,
and leave all the rest,
just joking bout leaving everything,
cuz im not gonna sacrifice everything,
just for a girl,
even though shes the whirll
EH!! EPIC FAIL LAH THIS POEM!! malas wanna continue ah .____. its 5am whut do u expect?! gd night all....
Monday, March 14, 2011
Vengeful Heart...
I wasnt raised to be so revengeful, i've been criticized by so many people being gay and all that shit, bt i never punched them or anything, i just laughed along, last year... hurt the most, but i just let if flow and kept being patient, but.... this year.... my patience is very limited, so many people are hurting me these days, but i never hurt em back cuz of reasons..
But this person is hurting me too much and i've had enough... that person can just go suck his/her fucking dad's COCK!!! im tired of the person not caring telling me all the shit making me hurt inside, this is bullshit.... fucked up shit of hell, i'd throw that person into hell!!
People come people go, shit faces....if someone dared me to crap on their fucking mouth... I'D DO IT!! ILL DO IT INFRONT OF ALL MY FRIENDS FOR THAT MATTER!! good thing dal is just making me chill so i dun do anything stupid.... feelings... went to hell along with the rest of me... only my hatred is here to solve the rest of the problems last years fool did.... no more mr. nice guy... anyone crosses me imma gun them to hell
[All the lifeless shit people reading this dun be so perasan, its not u... get a life!!! == ]
But this person is hurting me too much and i've had enough... that person can just go suck his/her fucking dad's COCK!!! im tired of the person not caring telling me all the shit making me hurt inside, this is bullshit.... fucked up shit of hell, i'd throw that person into hell!!
People come people go, shit faces....if someone dared me to crap on their fucking mouth... I'D DO IT!! ILL DO IT INFRONT OF ALL MY FRIENDS FOR THAT MATTER!! good thing dal is just making me chill so i dun do anything stupid.... feelings... went to hell along with the rest of me... only my hatred is here to solve the rest of the problems last years fool did.... no more mr. nice guy... anyone crosses me imma gun them to hell
[All the lifeless shit people reading this dun be so perasan, its not u... get a life!!! == ]
Monday, March 7, 2011
Im Back :D
LOL! finally rajin enough to update my blog... haiyah friend got so many problems sister, reading... while... i type... OK? errr... soon, i hope... WHOLE NOOB TEAM GONNA BE SINGLE!! YEEAAAAHH!!!!!waiting for her reply... asked already, while so many people said not to ask.. even my damn closest friend from primary school JUST BY LOOKING AT HER PIC! he said dun ask... but i asked anyway, told her to tell me her answer any time she pleases... maybe that was wrong >_> lol i wanna know, but i dun want it to be like the last girl, too forcing and all that shit
These days ive been so tired.. needa break.. but i know i aint got no break from life... *sigh* i love her... but i know she dun love me back but hey, life aint a rose garden right?? Test week i slept almost after every paper... damn... gonna study at the library with chris and maybe davina >_> idk
Schools are full of fools who drools when a pool of goons appear o.o LOL!! HAHA!! friend and other friend having relationship problems.. haih... damn sad lah .... FOR THEM!! i aint sad anymore... wearing a smiley badge everywhere so that i can get throught the day... smiley badge was given by my dearest friend... thank you ^^ hehe.... well its gonna rain.. updated my blog... HAPPY ?! lawl xD
These days ive been so tired.. needa break.. but i know i aint got no break from life... *sigh* i love her... but i know she dun love me back but hey, life aint a rose garden right?? Test week i slept almost after every paper... damn... gonna study at the library with chris and maybe davina >_> idk
Schools are full of fools who drools when a pool of goons appear o.o LOL!! HAHA!! friend and other friend having relationship problems.. haih... damn sad lah .... FOR THEM!! i aint sad anymore... wearing a smiley badge everywhere so that i can get throught the day... smiley badge was given by my dearest friend... thank you ^^ hehe.... well its gonna rain.. updated my blog... HAPPY ?! lawl xD
Monday, January 24, 2011
DGV DGV DGV
today din go to school, when my mum woke me up i said my leg was paining and she said i no need go to school, that was.... VERY SURPRISING!!! haha
DAAAAMMMNNN MYY SSISSSTEERR!!! use my thumbdrive and now GOT VIRUS!!! now i cannot play warcraft :'{ so sad... Hehe, yesterday was fun!! during the D.G.V (Distric Governors visit) we all made jokes and all that, Jeevan ate like 3 plates of rice Dx and i had like 1 half x( owh well, past is the past eyh?
HAHA!! my friend and i were like fooling around and my other friend took pics >_> of my weird faces :P WEIRD INDEED!!! i dunno but im listening to this gay song called Take That - Rule The worl >_> I NEED EMINEM!! i just found out eminem has a movie O.O
AAAHH!! now its better, listening to On Fire by eminem now :D
DAYUM!!! Cataclysm looks so cool, but many people say Deathwing is easier than Lich King o.o thats very... veryyyyy surprising since in the cinematic trailer he looks damn tough, tougher than the hulk, owh well, the magic of technology eyh? XD
These days, i dun think about her anymore, i just trying not to think of her, everytime i think she likes me, i think of all the signs that she doesnt, and i keep telling myself she will never like me, and i should just move on >_> every sign that says she likes me gets blocked over, and some memory of her doing something with some other guy..... quickly kills the memory saying she likes me >_>
Damn...... life sucks... im hungry... imma go eat now...
DAAAAMMMNNN MYY SSISSSTEERR!!! use my thumbdrive and now GOT VIRUS!!! now i cannot play warcraft :'{ so sad... Hehe, yesterday was fun!! during the D.G.V (Distric Governors visit) we all made jokes and all that, Jeevan ate like 3 plates of rice Dx and i had like 1 half x( owh well, past is the past eyh?
HAHA!! my friend and i were like fooling around and my other friend took pics >_> of my weird faces :P WEIRD INDEED!!! i dunno but im listening to this gay song called Take That - Rule The worl >_> I NEED EMINEM!! i just found out eminem has a movie O.O
AAAHH!! now its better, listening to On Fire by eminem now :D
DAYUM!!! Cataclysm looks so cool, but many people say Deathwing is easier than Lich King o.o thats very... veryyyyy surprising since in the cinematic trailer he looks damn tough, tougher than the hulk, owh well, the magic of technology eyh? XD
These days, i dun think about her anymore, i just trying not to think of her, everytime i think she likes me, i think of all the signs that she doesnt, and i keep telling myself she will never like me, and i should just move on >_> every sign that says she likes me gets blocked over, and some memory of her doing something with some other guy..... quickly kills the memory saying she likes me >_>
Damn...... life sucks... im hungry... imma go eat now...
Friday, January 21, 2011
WOWOW!!!
Malas lah wanna update blog, but it makes me not bored!! WOW! these days ive not been depressed or sad, thats good :D AND FUCK YEAH!!! im in a dancing group full of crazy psycho's including myself
dancing here dancing there, bball here bball there, futsal here futsal there, no study here no study there... damnit... needa study more!! on second thought, maybe not.. haha.. gonna watch Battle Los Angeles with acap after march test, just like the old days, watching just the two of us, but maybe Aiman's gonna join... i dunno... well... eh, my friends advice me not to go for this girl i like, so... yeah... i dun mind.. i mean come on, im not gonna wait.... not like last girl
so, i aint gonna go around sulking cuz of some girl wont take me... THATS PURE BULLSHIT!!
Why would i care? i got a whole life infront of me... and im suppose to just wait if a girl i like likes me or not... hell no!! if she doesnt like me, then fine... i dun mind, haha today was kinda funny, during chemistry we were doing an experiment with the trainee teacher as our guide, then we started singing for no reason xD
Suddenly one experienced teacher came in and shouted like his mother was on fire!!
HAHA!! and danced at arena a lil bit, and acap gonna join!! WHEE~~
but my pet sistah is sick D: NOOOOO!!! hope she gets betta, so that we can pass the auditions for ICC!! that'd be so awesome!! we still dont have a name though, kinda weird, vie wants it to be statistics >.>"
AH well, must write this karangan more than 600 words
FFFFWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOKKKKKKIIIINNNNGGGG BBBIIIIAAAATTTCCCHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn razihan, bloody retard, but he is a cool teacher, dun care if any of us sleep 8D
these days i dun care bout girls anymore, and my friend always hugs me, which is kinda weird, but eh, i guess i need hugs, cuz normally no one hugs me, cept eldest sis, she kinda squeezes me o.o
haha, these days im trying to save up, but somehw, im not gonna buy ecplipse when im practicing dancing >_> cuz vie and the others always finish em within like 1 hour!! HAHA!! Well, nw i still like that girl :3 dun care whut my friends say, at least my guy friends got meh back, but the girls... kinda... saying bad things bout her... but we'll just see....
dancing here dancing there, bball here bball there, futsal here futsal there, no study here no study there... damnit... needa study more!! on second thought, maybe not.. haha.. gonna watch Battle Los Angeles with acap after march test, just like the old days, watching just the two of us, but maybe Aiman's gonna join... i dunno... well... eh, my friends advice me not to go for this girl i like, so... yeah... i dun mind.. i mean come on, im not gonna wait.... not like last girl
so, i aint gonna go around sulking cuz of some girl wont take me... THATS PURE BULLSHIT!!
Why would i care? i got a whole life infront of me... and im suppose to just wait if a girl i like likes me or not... hell no!! if she doesnt like me, then fine... i dun mind, haha today was kinda funny, during chemistry we were doing an experiment with the trainee teacher as our guide, then we started singing for no reason xD
Suddenly one experienced teacher came in and shouted like his mother was on fire!!
HAHA!! and danced at arena a lil bit, and acap gonna join!! WHEE~~
but my pet sistah is sick D: NOOOOO!!! hope she gets betta, so that we can pass the auditions for ICC!! that'd be so awesome!! we still dont have a name though, kinda weird, vie wants it to be statistics >.>"
AH well, must write this karangan more than 600 words
FFFFWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOKKKKKKIIIINNNNGGGG BBBIIIIAAAATTTCCCHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn razihan, bloody retard, but he is a cool teacher, dun care if any of us sleep 8D
these days i dun care bout girls anymore, and my friend always hugs me, which is kinda weird, but eh, i guess i need hugs, cuz normally no one hugs me, cept eldest sis, she kinda squeezes me o.o
haha, these days im trying to save up, but somehw, im not gonna buy ecplipse when im practicing dancing >_> cuz vie and the others always finish em within like 1 hour!! HAHA!! Well, nw i still like that girl :3 dun care whut my friends say, at least my guy friends got meh back, but the girls... kinda... saying bad things bout her... but we'll just see....
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Dayum
i can't tell u how much you mean to me.
when i look at you, i wish that you could feel the way i do.
i wish you'd know, just what i'd give for you.
every night while i cry, i just want to call you and tell you 'i love you'
but when i think of what would happen if you didn't feel the same way, just shatters my heart and brings more tears. ur the only one who can make me smile, but when you can't..it's because you're the reason i cry.
really just wish u would feel the same way about me,
and i wish we both could be,
but it just wont seem to happen,
cuz ur heart seems to dampen,
and ignore all u want cuz i dun give a damn,
cuz my heart is sealed tight like a clam,
u leave i dun care and i dun mind,
cuz leaving someone isnt a crime..... so leave me be, if we werent suppose to be together, then let it be....
when i look at you, i wish that you could feel the way i do.
i wish you'd know, just what i'd give for you.
every night while i cry, i just want to call you and tell you 'i love you'
but when i think of what would happen if you didn't feel the same way, just shatters my heart and brings more tears. ur the only one who can make me smile, but when you can't..it's because you're the reason i cry.
really just wish u would feel the same way about me,
and i wish we both could be,
but it just wont seem to happen,
cuz ur heart seems to dampen,
and ignore all u want cuz i dun give a damn,
cuz my heart is sealed tight like a clam,
u leave i dun care and i dun mind,
cuz leaving someone isnt a crime..... so leave me be, if we werent suppose to be together, then let it be....
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Fuck
Fuck the dreams
Fuck the kisses
Fuck the hopes
Fuck the wishes.
Fuck the love
Fuck the hate
Fuck the money
Fuck the dates.
Fuck the hugs
Fuck the falls
Fuck the 'i love you's"
fuck the phone calls.
Fuck the pain
Fuck the hurt
Fuck you
Your a total jerk.
Fuck what I thought
Fuck what I said
Fuck all my feelings
They're all fucking dead.
Fuck the kisses
Fuck the hopes
Fuck the wishes.
Fuck the love
Fuck the hate
Fuck the money
Fuck the dates.
Fuck the hugs
Fuck the falls
Fuck the 'i love you's"
fuck the phone calls.
Fuck the pain
Fuck the hurt
Fuck you
Your a total jerk.
Fuck what I thought
Fuck what I said
Fuck all my feelings
They're all fucking dead.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
This New Year =D
WOW!! New years!! even though its already 5:01am 6th January 2011, its never too late. Its in the morning and im emo-ing >_> while playing some game called Battalion:Arena xD
All friendzies are asleep, mom and sis also. Probably should get some sleep, or maybe not, too weak, two weeks i have been having ups and downs, miss so many of my friends, miss last years cool times and awesome times together, dunno how am i gonna go through UNI without em.
We all got to move on eyh?
eheh, well, not getting a gf till after form 5... i think....
Friend says i should tell her how i feel this saturday, but thats not likely to happen, don't wanna disturb her, with all the form 4 stuff, and wow, the girls having more problems in school than us guys!! Amazing!! we guys chilling and learning slowly in school while the girls are learning so quick in their school..... owh well....
Last words.... im so lost without you....
All friendzies are asleep, mom and sis also. Probably should get some sleep, or maybe not, too weak, two weeks i have been having ups and downs, miss so many of my friends, miss last years cool times and awesome times together, dunno how am i gonna go through UNI without em.
We all got to move on eyh?
eheh, well, not getting a gf till after form 5... i think....
Friend says i should tell her how i feel this saturday, but thats not likely to happen, don't wanna disturb her, with all the form 4 stuff, and wow, the girls having more problems in school than us guys!! Amazing!! we guys chilling and learning slowly in school while the girls are learning so quick in their school..... owh well....
Last words.... im so lost without you....
Sunday, January 2, 2011
That Country and its people can go chop their balls off and die!!
Bloody hell that country, full of stupid people and idiot whores, wanna kutuk malaysia some more, they can all just look in the mirror and look at their stupid and dirty pig faces, no respect for Malaysians also, bloody freaking idiots, the leaders also so bullshiting idiots, full of strippers and assholes, cannot even count to ten, come to our country seeking money, we help them, then what they repay us?
THEY FUCKING EJEK AND KUTUK OUR CULTURE AND OUR PEOPLE!!!! THATS HOW THEY FREAKING REPAY US!!!
The BLOODY PEOPLE CANT GROW UP!! no education at all! no manners, they just shoot their words without thinking!! We help them last time, and now they acting bitchy to us, no wonder their hated and disrespected by other countries, CUZ THEY DISRESPECT OTHER COUNTRIES AS WELL!! acting like so tough and can beat Malaysia in everything, the bloody idiots....
creating groups called Anti-Malaysia on Facebook and talking crap about Malaysia, WHY DON'T THEY JUST SAY IT TO OUR FACES LAH!! We'll kick their idiot asses if they talk bullshit about us, but thank goodness because of our kind hearted Prime Minister we wont go to war with that stupid country, a single Malaysian has more manners then a billion of those stupid people in the country, someone should nuke them and rid of miss guidance and rudeness
getting more and more pissed with their smack talk, wanna just BREAK EVERY BONE OF EVERY SINGLE CITIZEN AT THAT FREAKING COUNTRY!!! but i know some are good hearted, and wont even dare to talk bad about Malaysians, they are loyal to their country even though their country is bullshit, i respect them and their purpose to make that country a better place, all i dont respect is those stupid heads thinking their so big and so better than Malaysians till making photos of all malaysian flags and manure, GOD!! Because of the good hearted people of that country i wont think of harming their land.....
THAT COUNTRY BETTER GROW UP AND START THINKING RIGHT OR SO HELP ME ILL PRAY UR DESTRUCTION!!!
THEY FUCKING EJEK AND KUTUK OUR CULTURE AND OUR PEOPLE!!!! THATS HOW THEY FREAKING REPAY US!!!
The BLOODY PEOPLE CANT GROW UP!! no education at all! no manners, they just shoot their words without thinking!! We help them last time, and now they acting bitchy to us, no wonder their hated and disrespected by other countries, CUZ THEY DISRESPECT OTHER COUNTRIES AS WELL!! acting like so tough and can beat Malaysia in everything, the bloody idiots....
creating groups called Anti-Malaysia on Facebook and talking crap about Malaysia, WHY DON'T THEY JUST SAY IT TO OUR FACES LAH!! We'll kick their idiot asses if they talk bullshit about us, but thank goodness because of our kind hearted Prime Minister we wont go to war with that stupid country, a single Malaysian has more manners then a billion of those stupid people in the country, someone should nuke them and rid of miss guidance and rudeness
getting more and more pissed with their smack talk, wanna just BREAK EVERY BONE OF EVERY SINGLE CITIZEN AT THAT FREAKING COUNTRY!!! but i know some are good hearted, and wont even dare to talk bad about Malaysians, they are loyal to their country even though their country is bullshit, i respect them and their purpose to make that country a better place, all i dont respect is those stupid heads thinking their so big and so better than Malaysians till making photos of all malaysian flags and manure, GOD!! Because of the good hearted people of that country i wont think of harming their land.....
THAT COUNTRY BETTER GROW UP AND START THINKING RIGHT OR SO HELP ME ILL PRAY UR DESTRUCTION!!!
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