......

I am waiting, waiting for the right time, when all of us can be together, like last time, last night i was thinking bout my birthday, 15th birthday, first birthday hangout in my life, first time i had friends around me celebrating, instead of doing it alone at home, mom at work, dad at work... im just waiting for the moment, where we can all come together, and do it all again, push everything aside, and just forget all the problems each of us had, i don't like being alone without everyone around me, but good things come to those who wait.. so im waiting, for the right time, still havent told her, and i feel guilty for that, some things are better off unsaid, til ur ready, i wont tell u..

The sad part is that nobody has stood up and herded us together, some are taking sides, well what can i say? we are all different, we're all human, and humans are like that, so don't be ashamed u took sides during a war.. just make sure that side is the right side, but im saying anyone is to be blamed.. we're all to be blamed, by being so blinded by all this negativity that we forgot all the good times we had, most people count the bad stuff, cuz bad stuff... i have no idea why people pay so much attention to bad stuff, but i'm, i'm just trying to stay positive these days... helping each of my friends if they need it, even if they don't appreciate it, i just do.. next week is early exams, gotta score, if i wanna go to plays or ICC.. but i'm fine if i don't go for ICC, but i prefer to go, i can support my friends performing, and just catch up with old friends that i haven't met..

right now just listening to some sad songs, i can't... be.. too sad, or not ill get angry, its 12.11am... i wish i could turn back time, but i can't.. so i just hope, everything will work out, even if i have to stand up and talk to everyone, people hating me and all, its okay, used to people hating me, if u ignore the pain, u won't get hurt.. most people think other people cause their pain, but its the person's choice.. to accept the pain, to give in to the pain.. or to just ignore it, no matter how bad it is, i chose to ignore it.. thats why i'm always happy.. cuz when imma bout to do something stupid, i think of the good stuff and bad stuff... well.. good night then, gotta get some sleep

so far away, i'm gone, please don't follow me tonight, and when i'm gone, everything will alright..

I want no one to care..

Uhm, i made a promise to someone, promised something.. and i don't intend to not do it.. so.. yeah.. these days i want no one to care for me, im glad to see most people not talking to me and not bothered bout what i do, so im glad, i just really am glad, cuz i don't want anyone to care, like form 1, the only friends i had were BB-ians, and some others, and i'd like to end my school days with just some friends, but i don't mind others joining in, just not so much, kept my distance from everyone from whats been happening last year, well.. thats all.. just gonna show u guys why i like Space so much.. and why i never said FML before...

This is the Cat's eye nebula (: its my favorite cuz its quite beautiful

This is the orion nebula, Orion's belt cant be seen.. uhm.. wait it can? dunnow if thats it or not, but yeah it holds the three stars for Orion's belt (:

This is the Helix Nebula, it kinda looks like a portal actually xD like in Portal 2, one blue and one orange xD either way, its nice

This is le Horsehead nebula, i put this in cuz, whenever i play chess, i always move the Knight first XD for those who dunnow what the Knight is, its the horse (:

This is the Eagle.. nebula? some people call it.. something.. something Pillars i think o_o.. PILLARS OF CREATION! :D yeahh xD

This is the Ring Nebula, it kinda looks like Helix, but in a different angle o_o

This is the.. RED SPIDER NEBULA!! if im not mistaken .___. looks like a pheonix.. or a baby chicken XD haha

Well i'm sorry if i wasted ur time.. was just.. ya know.. bored wanted to share some stuff... goodnight (: sweet dreams

dot... dot... dot...

i have a reason for everything i do.. not all reasons need to be known.. so theres a reason why im not talking to u.. just leave it be and forget about me >__>

SOMEONE HELP ME NOW!!

oh my fucking gosh.. im so hyper now!! Im listening to this awesome epic legendary orchestra piece and its so freaking awesome, some more acap making sooooo many typos making me laugh!! AAAHHH so much hyperness, and god damn today was so freaking awesome, went to mid valley spend some time with my bros went to the IT Convention centre was freaking awesome, RAZOR ALL THE WAY MAN!!! Watch Ghost Rider 2 with harith, i enjoyed it.. but it just wasnt as good as the first one, but i like the fact that anything the Rider rides turns into a demon, sort of.. vehicle xD OWH OWH!! my most favourite line is :
"I want you to count every money in there. People are robbing me these days!! It makes my balls hurt!"
Awwww that was freaking hilarious man!! Ya know, its time like this i love, cuz i forget bout all my problems, and all the things im mad at, just went around the mall hanging out, then went to victoria station for dinner, 3 hours there, thats mad bro.. thats mad xDD But yeah, got a message from her saying nite nite, i just ignored it.. Owh crap.. now Radiant Eclipse is playing, and im gonna get more hyper and tomorrow got that orchestra thing to go to acap gonna follow me, both of us wearing blazer, OR SUITS!! YEAAAHHH!! IMMMA BE BARNEY AND ACAP TED!!! le wingman xD ah well, i am feeling awesome, must start studying from this week, gonna start ignoring some people, owh wait, i already did. HAHAHA :P well... bye bye!!

This song is dedicated to you (:

Cause some things just don't change
It's better when they stay the same
Although the whole world knows your name
So on the biggest days they came to see you spit your game
Ooooohhhhhhh
It shouldn't be difficult to explain
Just why you came back again, you hate the fame
Love the game, cold as ice you remain
Fuck em' all, tell 'em all eat shit, here we go again

So, god damn... is it that time again already
Haha, you don't look too happy to see me
Fuck man, don't everybody welcome me back at once
All right, fuck ya'll then

[Verse 1]
You can get the dick, just call me the ballsac, I'm nuts
Michael Vick in this bitch, fall back you mutts
Fuck your worms, you never seen such a sick puppy
Fuck it a sick duck, I want my duck sick mummy
And my nuts, lick, gobble 'em up trick, yummy
Bitch you don't fucking think I know that you suck dick dummy?
You'll get your butt kicked, fuck all that love shit honey
Yeah I laugh when I call you a slut, it's funny!
Shawty dance while I diss you to the beat, fuck the words
You don't listen to 'em anyway, yeah struck a nerve sucker
Motherfucker might aswell let my lips pucker
Like Elton John, cause I'm just a mean cock sucker
This shit is on, cause you went and pissed me off
Now I'm sitting and pissing on everybody
Give a fuck if it's right or wrong
So buck the buddah, light a bong
But take a look at mariah the next time I inspire you to write a song, cmon

[Chorus]
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh, I'm as cold as the cold wind blows
When it snows and it's twenty be-low
Ask me why man I just don't know know know know know know know
I'm as cold as the cold wind blows blo-blo-blo-blo-blo-blows
Oh oh oh oh oh

[Verse 2]
Fuck it I'm a loose cannon, Bruce Banner's back in the booth
Ya'll are sitting ducks, I'm the only goose standing
I set the world on fire, piss on it, put it out
Stick my dick in a circle, but I'm not fucking around motherfucker
I'll show you pussy footin, I'll kick a bitch in the cunt
Til it makes her queef and sounds like a fucking whoopy cushion
Who the fuck is you pushin', you musta mistook me for some sissy
Soft punk looking for some nookie or boosom
Go ahead, fucking hater push me
I told you ain't no fucking way to shush me
Call me a faggot cause I hate a pussy
Man the fuck up sissy, G's up
All you gardeners freeze up, put your hoes down (shady ease up!)
Man chill, nah I can't god damnit
Rap is a landfill, drop the anvil
These are shoes that you can't fill
Shit the day that happens the world'll stop spinning
And Michael J. Fox'll come to a stand still
During an earthquake, urine in your face
Cause you're fake, ahh what the fuck, that hurt wait!
Ahh what the fuck, I just got struck by lightening
Alright then I quit, god I give up
Call it evil that men do, lord forgive me for what my pen do
This is for your sins, I cleanse you
You can repent but I warn you, if you continue
To hell I'll send you, and just then the wind blew and I said

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh, I'm as cold as the cold wind blows
When it snows and it's twenty be-low
Ask me why man I just don't know know know know know know know
I'm as cold as the cold wind blows blo-blo-blo-blo-blo-blows
Oh oh oh oh oh

[Verse 3]
How long will I be this way? Shady until my dying day
Til I hang up the mic and it's time for me to say
So long, til then I drop the fucking bombs
Like I miss the pass when I went long
If you don't like it you can kiss my ass in a lint thong
Now sing along, slut this, slut that, learn the words to the song
Oh bitches don't like that, homie I'll be nicer to women
When the aqua man drowns and the human torch starts swimming
Man I'm a cold soul, I roll solo so
So don't compare me to them other bums over there
It's like apples to oranges, peaches to plums yeah
I'm bananas pussy, cut off the grapes and grow a pair
But I swear, you try to diss me, I'll slaughter you
I put that on everything, like everyone does with auto-tune
That last thing you wanna do is have me spit out a rhyme
And say I was writing this and I thought of you so

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh, I'm as cold as the cold wind blows
When it snows and it's twenty be-low
Ask me why man I just don't know know know know know know know
I'm as cold as the cold wind blows blo-blo-blo-blo-blo-blo-blows
Oh oh oh oh oh

[Outro]
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
I don't know, I don't know what caused, I don't know what caused me to be this way
I don't know, I don't know but I probably be this way 'til my dying day
I don't know why I'm so, I'm so cold mean things I don't mean to say
I guess this is how you made me

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Guess they're really mad at me huh, very pissed off xD do what u want lah, be pissed, go spread rumours, go tell other people im gay or im a bad boyfriend or any shit, whoever lah that spreads it, im not the one being a looser xD fuck urself man!! or woman, now i don't really care what u call me, u can even call me rude, what the fuck to i give?? Open 2000 books and still can't find the fuck i give haha, u think u can hurt me... Impossibru (:

Awesome day

today was kinda okay, nothing to talk bout, just today we had a lil gather at my house, ALL GAMERS yeahhh, and all malays, not to be racist, but easier.. these past few days havent been easy with games and all trying to study, havent even study for 1st Test T___T damn i need to stop all this crap and study.. so idk, just no time for drama right now, set all emotions aside, and start focusing study, friends also aside, just some friends only register, these two idiots up there at the photo went to my house xDD

Well, nothing to talk bout, not really a good mood ....

WHAT??

BABI COMEL GILA SIAL!! agghhh.. zee world is full of cutenessss!!! but not everything is cute, cats mostly are .___.

Funny..

Tonight, this very night, for those of you who don't like geeks then don't read this, was playing SC II as usual, doing the normal build, in the mood then this guy decides to 6 pool me, i was like

I was so bullshiting angry, ruined my mood., decided to counter it, counter counter counter, then i build my army, then i build this massive fucked up army, macro macro macro, micro my shit up when battling him, the he decided to pull back and i was like 

then i won, cuz i am gold, and he bronze.. so yeah, point of this post just wanted to try gifs :P forgot my tumblr password .____. today maulidur rasul AWESOME!! slept in the prefect room the whole time it was on (: well.. ceramah lah, we won 4th place for perarakan 8D YEAHH!!! imma go reply her now, maybe in a while after i bathe.. just noticed it, AND GOD DAMN IM HUNGRY.. aight.. adios

Freaking Hungry

Seriously i think theres a hole in my stomach, cuz i've been hungry all the time!!! GAAHH!! at 2 plates of rice, now hungry edi, the fuck!!! damn i hope my mom cooked me that burger ><"" ESOK MAULIDUR RASUL!! YEAAAHH!! EXCITED MAN!!! 8'D well bye bye ^^

My Song

This song by Avenged Sevenfold, called I Wont See You Tonight, listened to it everyday whilst i was at UK, thought about stuff, and those 3 weeks that i have realized the relationship aint going to well.. so yeah.. these are the lyrics, cant really sing it so i just sang in the bathroom while it was playing xD


Cry alone, I've gone away 
No more nights, no more pain 
I've gone alone, took all my strength 
I've made the change, 
I wont see you tonight 

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood 
All the ones around me 
I cared for and loved 

It's building up inside of me 
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free 
Don't mourn for me, 
You're not the one to place the blame 
As bottles call my name 
I won't see you tonight 


Sorrow sank deep inside my blood 
All the ones around me 
I cared for and most of all I loved 
But I can't see myself that way 
Please don't forget me, or cry while I'm away 


Cry alone, I've gone away 
No more nights, no more pain 
I've gone alone, took all my strength 
But I've made the change, 
I wont see you tonight 

(So far away, I'm gone
Please don't follow me tonight 
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright)

No more breath inside 
Essence left my heart tonight [x2]



This song just makes me really sad, ATM even.. but life moves on >_>