Dunno..

It aint normal for me to update my blog almost everyday, but it just feels like the only way i can express myself and all, cuz im just afraid that when i express it in real life, people will start judging, but i know people have been judging me for a long time, even now, so im not that worried, just keep it to yourself don't have to tell me no matter how bad it is, i lost 2 people in a year, that really is a big bummer.. and i know they've moved on and im not surprised so it just tells me that life sometimes suck, and this year im actually being such a bitch, yeah i know it myself, owh btw, ignore the post down there its just me trolling xD i would never tell who i trust, and i was just curious on how many people will get mad at me, my curiousity is bigger than the universe so it dont be surprise if i hurt some people with my curiousity, its just me, not surprised if alot of people are mad at me, it aint surprising, mom gets mad everyday so its just like a breath of fresh air aint nothing so special about it

realize i've done some things wrong, alot of things i guess, so i am sorry, it just goes to show that some people have really been messing with my zen this past few days, family specially, mom dad, aunty all stressing about SPM, and breaking up with her seemed like it was just yesterday, it still hurts, it comes and goes, but its not that bad, its good to remember the times we had, makes me smile once in a while, which is rare these days, rarely smile even if you did see me having a big smile on my face, aint meaning im smiling on the inside,

i know i wasnt such a good bf to you.. always missed the times you were crying, and you were alone, still regret being so angry at UK, and always scolding you, and even i didnt know when u cried, right now im real dizzy and im real tired and im gonna play some games now to make me relax, feel like im gonna puke any second, i found my dinosaur bottle, and thing im gonna bring it to school, today when i came back i looked at lucky feet and he seemed so sad, guess when his emotions are like mine.. just finished add maths, gonna hang my clothes in a while

so to the people that are angry at me, go on being angry you can even bitch about me if you want, i don't mind, just don't tell me in the face cuz ill give you one punch, no matter girl or boy.. well goodnight, and whoever is reading this, HAI :J