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I know havent been a good bf and all.. and im sorry i ended it by texting.. i wanna say all these stuff but i cant, cuz it doesnt matter any more... sigh.. i just wanna die.. emotions get the best of me.. now im just, playing with a friend to just calm myself down my gut feels like its contracting inside itself so badly really havent been this sad in a long time, but no, i dont expect u to text me like usual, and im not surprised, so guess i wont text u in a while, i really need my bros right now, thank god i got acap and harith and edz, and muhaimin, to cheer me up at school or something... know they arent the best at talking bout girl issues, but they cheer me up and forget bout stuff, they cheered me up more than anyone else, well the good thing is im concentrating more and more on studies, its going smooth and i feel like i can score, but the bad thing is, i feel lonely as fuck, everybody just left me liddat, cept for my bros, thats why i would prefer them, then the interact friends that are so into popularity and all that shit.. i prefer talking to them, then talking to my crush, or my gf, or my ex... or any girl for that matter... my friend is like loosing and we're laughing together xD i died, thats why im writing this .__. but yeah, no one can overcome how close i am to my guy friends rather than girls, soo, if the girls wanna just leave me out on anything, thats fine, im already lonely as fuck, and im not surprised if more and more people forget bout me, i just need my bro's.. and my sisters.. i dont expect u to understand, but if u do then thanks, u dont have to talk to me with ur short texts, i wont waste ur credit, so yeah... my friends doing great, his macro and micro starting to buck up.. still have that sad feeling.. but yeah life aint a bed of roses, they still have thorns in them... first update since UK, so really.. i just quit interact cuz i duwanna feel lonely anymore, make friends in interact then they just ignore me and all.. but hey, i dont mind.. like my mom said.. don't make friends important, be selfish sometimes, ur friends will not always be there for you when u need them, go on by ur own and on ur own to accomplish ur future, and my mom when she scolds me for being out with friends too much, she always asks me "Will davina and all those friends be there for you in the future?" i know the answer is no.. but i just didnt wanna make a fool of myself, if ur saying im too mean, then do so, cuz right now the only ones i call friends are the ones i meet in school everyday, and they guys i meet at tuition, the ones that pick me up when im down..