Failures

my life, full of failures, LOL! ya know, primary school, never got the girl i liked, infact, she ignored me the whole time, UPSR got 3 A's mom and dad were dissapointed, uhm, form 1 til 2 failed agama, and din get even straight A's, form 3, fell for a girl, waited for one year, ended up rejecting me, uhm, got 5A's, mom and dad very dissapointed, this year, fell for a girl... got her, and she broke up with me... guess no girl wants me, might as well be gay...

Forgive me for my mistakes,
even though they are as deep as lakes,
numbers exceeding millions,
mistakes the number of billions,

I do not know whats wrong,
or maybe im just not strong,
I have made so many wrong doings,
and friended unwanted things,

might sound sad and tacky,
my only friend was a catty,
he always was there when i wanted him,
too bad he died and i was alone again,

I maybe surrounded by friends,
but my mood. it depends..

I liked a girl since so many years,
too bad she left me in tears,
this year i thought it was different,
with the girl i am liking current,

Though it went smoothly at first,
but some happy moments gotta burst,
dumped and alone again,
Since no lives are at stake,
I just may be Gods Only Mistake...

Lt. M Killa just makes me laugh so badly!!!

"Like if im gonna die like 10 or 20 times or 4376 times, so at least if i die 437 fucking 6 times, i listen to decent god damn music not fucking a bunch of fucking fairies hangin around a god damn harp fucking cupid fucking strumming shootin out arrows at peoples assholes and shit, FUCK THAT SHIT!! we're gonna play this shit hardcore and imma yell at the screen like a stupid *he dies in the game* MOTHERFUCKER!!! BALLSACKS!!!!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA damnit dude, u never seem to amaze me (: u needa chill...

AWESOME!! damn the game damn hard lah xDD its called "The Impossible" game xDD dayummm

Sup Mah Dawgs...

heh no emo today.... dun wan emo... so hard not to be, BUT GOD DAMNIT U CANT JUST GO AROUND SOBBING AND ALL!!! she may be ur first... but maybe she wont be ur last? haih.. eh i said no emo.. k... todayy well starting of school everyone was like doing their Add Maths... so i thought of doing it also.. starting off was Mentor menti WHICH I SLEPT THROUGH THE WHOLE THING!! YESS!! no needa hear my menti babling, then it was Add Maths, dayum, i think it was just damn easy, 2 pracitices and formative, finish in 10 minutes, awesome weyh... then other subs and rehat...

then finish school, malas ah nak cakap tentang the other stuff, then me, dal and siva went to play bball... WE GOT OWNED LIKE SHIT MAN!!! damn malu weyh!! 11-1 T_T dayum.... then we went SA to take siva's tickets WHICH I HAD TO PAY FOR! bloody fat ass cant even keep a promise, dah lah Ky in a bad mood, damn worrying bout ky, she bad thise whole week .___. haih.. OWH OWH!! huh, mysteriously i knew alot of em at SA edi xDD owh well... then we went to play bball again, AGAIN WE LOST! damn karat edi lah o.e

Then went to Sa just walk around, sat here sat there, then saw Kai, Marina and Fatiah coming out... then i saw Kai at the gate, wanted to surprise her, when running towards her... nampak eli... god damnit man... wanted to say hi, but i know she wont say back so nvm lah, just leave her alone jap.... and then just talked to Kai, marina and fatiah, then kai went off, so just talked to marina bout Carnival, she say its going badly! NO VENUE!!!! how can this be?!?! Haha then just went back and played bball again, fell damn sick, seriously headache was killing me, but pain is pain right? and like anyone would care... walked to Grandmas house and just pengsan on the bed... then woke up and started to text ky... reached my grandmas at like 6? then went back home at 9 ==" mum bought KFC!! WEEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEW!! heh, now im just playing SMK with dav! YEAH I OWN HER MAN!!! XD and listening to eminem, well nitez ;)

May not be together, but ur still am my lil wan :'l

idk whut to say, first time im really sad this year... and first time i shed a tear, in so many years... damn.... nothing can cheer me up right now.. i just feel soooo sad god damnit.. i know shes not dead, and i can still see her, but i just feel, she just aint mine no more u____u haih... dammnniitt, wanna get over, but i just cant :/ needa shoot my heart out, fuck the world... either way, i still love her, no matter whut (:

FUCK YOU BITCH!!! t(==t)

fuck off u uncaring peace of shit of a person!!! FUCK YOU!!!imma kill u using mah
BUNNY TANK!
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Fucked up..

FUCK TODAY!! FUCK TODAY!! I GIVE IT A BIG _l_!!!! FUCKING SHIT!! the most happiest day become the fuckest uped day of the year... fuck it lah... bullshit, full of bullshit, imma break anyones face if they bother me tmmrw in school, shitfaces... bloody fucked up day... >:[ i just wanna break someones face, thank god i din break some strangers face when cycling he almost hit me... fucked up fella don't know how to drive. MOM NEVER TEACH U AH? U SON OF A BITCH!!! -.-"" great sweet shit.... wtver lah fucked up people of the world... imma turn gay!!

My Life

Ya know, if u think im not worth at all, then leave me, im use to people leaving me behind, or just abandoning me just like that, its okay, i've stopped caring since my dad told me i was a piece of nothing when i was a kid, i be happy most of the times, so that i wont be reminded of all the stuff of how my shitty life is, i know, u think that ya know, i don't care, i don't understand you, or something else, if u think im not worth it, then move on, im okay with that, huh, last year waited for a girl for a year, and she ended up going to someone else, hehe, makes me laugh... .____. i've lived with disappointments and things turning me down for something else, you wanna leave me, stop loving, wanna love someone else better than me, okay, fine, ur choice, the front door of my life is always open, u wanna leave my life, remember to shut the door on ur way out... u say i don't care... its not that i don't care... its just im use to the crap i go through everyday, its like my daily routine... morning : mom nags, and blames me for everything she goes through, afternoon : dad smokes outside at the porch comes in during lunch if i do something wrong he'll yell at me, night : nagging from both and asking me to do this do that, if my eldest sis nags is a bonus.... eheh, whenever my dad says i got no brain or no tongue i just smile and think of my pets, that would never leave me, they died, i know its sad, but hey, at home in this neighberhood and in my life, my bestfriend was always dal, cuz no matter what i do or no matter what he did, we will always stick together, but now, i feel like im loosing him, maybe i was made to be a loner, loner just walking across the lands... haha, i bet if i marry some girl out there shes gonna cheat on me on this hotter guy.... i wont be surprised if that happens... im not a guy that becomes mad easily, i just get irritated, never yelled at anyone in my life though... i know, if i get any gf in my life, she'll end up see-ing me as a weirdo freak gay, and ending up breaking up with me.... yeaahh, maybe i should turn gay... .___. nah i'd rather die, but hey ya know, even though life is shit, i always got friends, and if the whole lot of em leave me, its okay, everyones gotta move on once in a while, i need myself, i and me... thats all i need, cuz even though people think "omg im seeing this post, im gonna go be his friend" yeah they say that once they see this post, but after a few weeks they forget and leave you to rot in ur freaking life... sooo... if u wanna leave me, leave me, u can stop loving me, u can stop caring for me, even though i care bout everyone in my life, i know they don't care much bout me at all, soooo go on, live ur life, no point having me as ur burden... go... u don't have to be my care taker or anything... haha, i wont be surprised if i die alone... thats good actually, no one to get all sad when i die, no one to be at my funeral, no one to cry over my dead body, so its better if i stay alone, me alone = no one gets hurt when something happens to me..

So go if u think im just a tall guy with loads of friends, go if u think i don't care bout chu, or love you..... the door is open... i've been left so many times i've gotten use to it already...