My Life

Ya know, if u think im not worth at all, then leave me, im use to people leaving me behind, or just abandoning me just like that, its okay, i've stopped caring since my dad told me i was a piece of nothing when i was a kid, i be happy most of the times, so that i wont be reminded of all the stuff of how my shitty life is, i know, u think that ya know, i don't care, i don't understand you, or something else, if u think im not worth it, then move on, im okay with that, huh, last year waited for a girl for a year, and she ended up going to someone else, hehe, makes me laugh... .____. i've lived with disappointments and things turning me down for something else, you wanna leave me, stop loving, wanna love someone else better than me, okay, fine, ur choice, the front door of my life is always open, u wanna leave my life, remember to shut the door on ur way out... u say i don't care... its not that i don't care... its just im use to the crap i go through everyday, its like my daily routine... morning : mom nags, and blames me for everything she goes through, afternoon : dad smokes outside at the porch comes in during lunch if i do something wrong he'll yell at me, night : nagging from both and asking me to do this do that, if my eldest sis nags is a bonus.... eheh, whenever my dad says i got no brain or no tongue i just smile and think of my pets, that would never leave me, they died, i know its sad, but hey, at home in this neighberhood and in my life, my bestfriend was always dal, cuz no matter what i do or no matter what he did, we will always stick together, but now, i feel like im loosing him, maybe i was made to be a loner, loner just walking across the lands... haha, i bet if i marry some girl out there shes gonna cheat on me on this hotter guy.... i wont be surprised if that happens... im not a guy that becomes mad easily, i just get irritated, never yelled at anyone in my life though... i know, if i get any gf in my life, she'll end up see-ing me as a weirdo freak gay, and ending up breaking up with me.... yeaahh, maybe i should turn gay... .___. nah i'd rather die, but hey ya know, even though life is shit, i always got friends, and if the whole lot of em leave me, its okay, everyones gotta move on once in a while, i need myself, i and me... thats all i need, cuz even though people think "omg im seeing this post, im gonna go be his friend" yeah they say that once they see this post, but after a few weeks they forget and leave you to rot in ur freaking life... sooo... if u wanna leave me, leave me, u can stop loving me, u can stop caring for me, even though i care bout everyone in my life, i know they don't care much bout me at all, soooo go on, live ur life, no point having me as ur burden... go... u don't have to be my care taker or anything... haha, i wont be surprised if i die alone... thats good actually, no one to get all sad when i die, no one to be at my funeral, no one to cry over my dead body, so its better if i stay alone, me alone = no one gets hurt when something happens to me..

So go if u think im just a tall guy with loads of friends, go if u think i don't care bout chu, or love you..... the door is open... i've been left so many times i've gotten use to it already...